it is funny and silly how i used to think i'll never get over him. it is stupid and damned of me to think he is everything and has it all and i can never do without him. yea yea love is blind yada yada but why didn't i get it all along? oh yah hor. forgot lar. i forgot the fact that he was the psycho one and he would cry and beg and plead on all fours not to leave him. wahaha. dumb arse.
i am so tired on that stupid vicious cycle.
thank God i stood strong. thank God for my girlfrens sayang. no matter how bitchy they could be. they still rule lar. thank God i cried and cried. first two weeks were madness. 3 days out of 5 i got to work late. with eyebags summore. n then i thought to myself gosh elya you're so pathetic. look, the apeks and hunks and school boys just dont give you anymore second look. bleargh.
and so, i started baking. start concentrating on my dishes ingredients. dipped and swam in the pool like it's hot. went to Rouge...and found someone who is the male version of me. like totally. let's just say, TGIFU. well, the F word has endless probabilities to it but so what? only he knows. i know. and He knows...
so, here i am. back on my two feet again. was picked up from the dust. the dust was dusted away and i was polished and buffered till i was smitten all over. been so long since i was polished and buffered you know..? but then i guess, it is still too soon to say any hopes and dreams.
let's just sit back and enjoy the show ok?
and that's hot and he's handsome and i'm gorgeous and we rock the world of dunkin donuts and keropok lekor. that is so hot lor.
