Butterflies & Hurricanes part2

fuck you.

2008-04-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. thank you.

so fast eh....

2008-01-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

eh i'm back. i'm back to share with you what i'll be missing this year.

Abang Brandon Sedap

Abang Adam Sexy

EFF! EFF! BIG EFFING EFF SIALLLLL!

Keep a safe distance from me. I'm fighting with my own demons. And listening to symphony x is not helping.

I need my best remedy. Go figure.

I miss my original haven

2008-01-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

hi there. i've missed you. i'm sorry i've been multiplying so much. i know u might think im crazy apologizing to dot com, but hey, i saved a beetle from drowning in NSRCC pool few days ago.

i think i'll still keep you. you hold too many memories for me.

or at least, i'll keep the entries you once posted for me.

bonne nuit!

actually kan...

2007-12-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

i admit. i am very much of an extrovert person. but i am also an introvert in an introvertly manner.

i enjoy watching ppl spreading the latest news just landed on their ears to me. i amuse myself by sometimes pretending not to know or have the slightest idea on what they are talking about. i just love to have the last laugh. and yes, most of the time, those latest news they are telling me about, are way overdue. and then they will make that little gasp sound and ask me how could i be so ignorant? or how could i not know? or not noticed? in better moods, i end the conversation with an entah (with a very blur face) or just shrug it off. in worse moods, i tend to say things like why should i know?

life has been pretty o-k-a-y for me. im feeling excited. like as if im gonna land my hands on another coupe beamer. like as if im going rollercoastering at dunia fantasi tonite. like as if im going to catch the lotr trilogy. i cant figure out why.

strangely, i cant wait to get to office tmrw.

mengapa ye?

ohhh!!!! ok ok...can't wait for next monday ler....nanti akak dapat toy baruuuuu!

just what busy secretaries aka personal assistant aka admin officers need...

*slurp*

chilli chilli crabs so sedap

2007-11-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

so, we had chilli crabs at newton for two consecutive saturdays. last night, must thank aypah for belanja-ing us. but of course, it's either dinner on her or she has to wax and mandi swifty in and out. her choice. so she chose to fill us up hoping we shut up about the other night (the 3 saturday night ago). muahahahahahaaa...

congrats to my "other relative" in multiply who happens to be my best friend's sister. ouh boy now she's married liaow. so i wish both of you much much happiness!

im wondering what's mum cooking...macam ada bau sambal ajer (heaven!)....

and my alang's beautiful cat, Dewi dah meninggal dunia. kesian Dewi. cause of death? unknown kot? ntah lah...then just now my sister practically called up the whole family asking for cangkul and at the same time announcing the death of the cat. kesian right. by now, i think Dewi has been buried liaow.

daddy and nephew are watching smokin aces. and my nephew being an "innocent" boy he is, he's always giving out comments like aiyoh have the eff word. then i almost switched it off but then i thought, ok ok might as well give him an education on the gangster life and how they commute with each other. yah yah im the coolest aunty i know.

and last night, we found douglas o at le baroque. and he rawks. and im planning to book the cosy 2nd floor for my bday next year. too early to plan lah but then again maybe not. i'd rather have it in a chalet or some private house. and then i could ask ahtam take off on that day could spin some trippy tracks for me. and then it'll be just our own private party. then i'll fill up the jacuzzi and my guests are welcome to berendam there with their jeans or dresses. yelah tu...

eh my mum's cooking nasi lemak lah!!! sapa nak? meh datang tamp st 21.

milo godzilla nak datang rumah?

She's The Haunting Taunting Hot Hantu

2007-10-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

She's my best friend. She's my sidekick in double matches. In the realm of PSP.

Gggrrrrr..........

P.S: The previous entry was jotted down during a state of messy mind.

P.P.S: I'm loving my new CK belt. Anything with chains are a major turn on for me.

I miss my ahbwee.

i think

2007-10-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

i don't see it anymore.

i think it's starting to get dusty.

i think i think too much.

i don't think those words apply much to me.

somethings obstructing my view. gotta stop before too late.

wake ur idea up. before the memories flaked away.

i read too much lines in-between.

i'd deciphered too many things, foolishly.

i need to go.

maybe for awhile. maybe for long. maybe forever.

but i need to go. alone.

think i'm effing crazy?

elya never gives a hoot on what others think.

so you're effing wasting your time figuring me out.

no one could interpret me.

bye lah.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

2007-10-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

*shrieeeeekkkkkk*

Yipes! Can't wait can't wait to wet my eyes, my cheeks, my nose, my whatever.

Oh December, cepat lah meh datang...

hypertension sucks

2007-10-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

the morning started out normally. only with a slight headache on the way to work which i thought will fade sooner or later. and then i saw floating black spots on my computer screens and everywhere. the world was spinning 360degrees at 10000km/h. for a perfect vision girl, the sights really scared me yesterday. then i went to puay ki's cubicle and looked out at the window. thought that some greenery sceneries might help but noooooooooooooooo. it only got worse.

so sad bkoz i couldn't fast the last 3 days of Ramadhan since i started puking liquids at work yesterday. stayed in the toilet's cubicle for 15 mins until i could breathe normally again. i brought a mentos in my pocket and popped in my mouth. that was the only energy provider for me to drag myself slowly to the locker room where i lay down waiting for my ahbwee to come and rescue me.

doctor said i just got hypertension. and i was like wtf? i am lesser stressful at work nowadays as compared to 3 months ago. so i slept soundly last night looking forward to go to work. and then i saw the floating spots again in my shower room. seram babe. macam hantu. the world started to spin again lerr....irritating!!!

but im starting to feel better now. only that the world decides to spin on me occassionally. so i decided to bake choc chip walnut cookies today. kakak ipar saya order dari saya lerrr....and also nak donate some to the tunang. heeeeheeeee...mother dah ask "kau tak buatkan tunang kau kuih?" then told her the double choc chunk cookies are his favourites. then mom said "si cookie hitam tu? hmmm....macam orang dia jugak". hahahaha. but my ahbwee is not hitam ok. P.U.B made him hitam. otherwise, our child will be born as casper!

i know i don't make much sense today.

just hopefully i'll be well by hari raya. then can pakai baju tunang with the hot corset.

most importantly, besok nak pi geylang beli lekor and burger ramly last kopek. nanti rindu.

kepada kawan2 saya, kenalan2 saya di internet, bloggers2 yang mengenali diri saya, saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri! kalau murah hati, tanya account number saya jadi boleh memberi sikit kepada saya yang memerlukan. hahaha. what rubbish. kalau entries saya ni ter-bitchy ke, buat awak menyampah ke, maaf lah eh tapi ni blog saya, oh well what can i say? maaf zahir dan batin kengkawans!

stupid girl stupid girl

2007-09-29T12:43:00.000+08:00

i never thought of myself as stupid but i just agreed with myself that i am indeed. i blardy know it's gonna hurt me but i just still keep on reading it over and over again. then i thought to myself, why last time can this time cannot? why last time like that this time like this? why last time's easier this time's harder?

god damn it. i do deserve things like last time also you know. but i just cant bring it up like that bkoz it will be stupid. it will be foolish. and funnily selfish. ultimately, unrealistic. i might just drop dead if i were to bring it up. bkoz everythings different.

i sometimes regret being me right now. like my current self. i have chosen to stop instilling challenges to my partner eversince i found him at rouge. i have chosen to stop being a bitch. i have decided to spare a heart. i decided that retaliating is not a way to solve problems. even when sometimes just sometimes i am right. i'll just bite my tongue and stay quiet. i have stopped lashing out at people especially to my partner. lucky him, he has never experienced that side of me before. and i reckon he never will. bkoz im such a patient girl like that. i have decided to be boring to make things easier. my my, was i ever that accomodating? point is, being a 100% good girl doesn't pay up. rihanna is the good girl gone bad. i am the bad girl gone good. feels so boring and it's not that accomplishing. the chase just stopped. i seriously do not like that.

shiqin just mohawked with sweet blonde streaks. i love i love i love. my toni and guy hairstylist decides to bribe me so i could model outrageous hairstyles for him again. and the current elya turned him down. pfft.

i feel so boring.

salary is out. last time first stop would be paragon. then to the nail shop and hunt for good music at hmv and then good reads at borders. this time it will be saving up for hari raya and give kids green packets. not only that, need to also save up for my future with him.

and the question would be, a mohawk or curls ala sara ramirez in greys anatomy? i think it shall be the mohawk. just to spice some stale things up.

bah

2007-09-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

suddenly, im just not interested anymore.

to hell with plans.

Dear Diary

2007-09-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, mummy and i decided to go for serious shopping at courts. we bought a new fridge (fridge lama nak dekat roboh ler...) and for me turning into 23, mummy bought moi an acer aspire series laptop. yes the one with crystal eye integrated webcam. and yes the one with dolby digital live surround sound. i have yet to download my mapple story bkoz apparently this laptop is for game lovers! it might not be as spanking as that sony vaio or macbook but this laptop spells out ELYA. i could easily asked for a smart phone or that vaio or even a ps3 (decided to wait and get it for him lah) but like i said, this lappie spells out ME.

Prior to that, lifetime brought me on a shopping spree last saturday. things i chose and decided to call my own at 23 really surprised myself. but im glad i got that hot latina fever cd from that cd shop lah. only thing left to do is to play the salsa volume by the beach dancing the night away with him accompanied with nachos and spicy cheese on our picnic mat. when ahbwee?

so after the shopping at orchard road, literally the whole of orchard, met the other loves at somerset and iftar-ed at sakura international buffet lor. very yum yum lorr!
sedap enak lazat. unfortunately, not even a picture taken on that saturday when everyones around. oh boo hoo. turning 23 also feels kinda lame.

im starting to really miss zouk. there, i've said it. im starting to miss my loud clothes. im missing those days. sometimes i thought of having random weekday nights out of tampines and then im just too tired. elyo is such an energy sucker. and ppl just kept on thinking its only a desk-bound job. yeah ONLY. i kept telling myself to shoot for the moon, if all else fails, i'll still be among the stars (inspired by cecilia ahern) but what kinda moon? on which planet? from which galaxy?

mommy's sleeping right now. been awhile since i last danced to cassie's. i need to dance.

thank god training is back tmrw onwards. apparently, there'll be many many shows to perform come november. i see kachings kachings. might not be a britney kinda training, but who cares. it's still a dance. just dat it has traditions scent all over the steps.

wish me luck. am gonna iftar with his big family at cck today. jitteryjittery bugs.

alamak

2007-09-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

erk. what am i doing here? arrghhhh! hold on tight elya! 2 more pages of sweet damnful budgeting to be done. and then voila voila voila!

have i told you september is sweet?

brb!

Chocolate

2007-09-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

But at 23, I'm definitely feeling this.

Fragile seams,
I opened up too quick and all my dreams,
Were walking out I'd slowly,
Lost my fire,
With every single man a river cried

I had no sensation,
Completely numb, left with no satisfaction,
I thought no-one could ever get me high again,
I swear, I was not looking

Oh, waited so long,
I thought the real thing was a fake,
I thought it was a tool to break me down,
You proved me wrong again

If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me,
Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down

Like chocolate, Tastes so good,
My heart's been mended who'd have thought it would,
An empty bet and still I won the cash,
A man who I love and who,
Loves me back

Like chocolate come here,
Zoom in, catch the smile,
There's no doubt it's from you,
And I'm addicted to it now

Just one look boy to melt me down,
Just one heart here to save me now,
Your candy kisses are sweet I know,
Hold me tight baby don't let go,
Just one look boy to melt me down,
Just one heart here to save me now,
Your candy kisses are sweet I know,
Hold me tight baby don't let go

I might just enjoy my rochers right now (from the 2 rocher engagement bouquets).

*Slurppppp*

i'm 23. i still feel like 13.

2007-09-13T21:02:00.001+08:00

I'm officially 23. Still feels like 13 lah.

Elya ingin mengucapkan jutaan terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan Elya yang telah mengambil masa dan memenatkan jari jemari mereka untuk menyampaikan sms kepada Elya dengan ucapan selamat ulang tahun yang ke dua puluh tiga. Dan tidak lupa juga kepada rakan-rakan di friendster, KL, Elyo dan mana-mana jua merek berada. Kepada dian, nani dan aydah kerana sudi meluangkan masa untuk makan malam di swensens dengan Elya semalam. Terima kasih ye. Dan juga kepada rakan-rakan sekerja yang begitu prihatin dengan birthday kek Elya yang tak kesampaian. Takpe. Nanti lepas raya pun boleh belikan kek. Elya tak kisah. Sebelum Elya akhiri ucapan ini, Elya ingin mengucapkan tahniah dan terima kasih kepada penyokong2 dan kawan-kawan Elya untuk membuat Elya senyum sepanjang hari. Terima kasih!!!

i love my saturdays with you.

2007-09-09T12:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday. it was a very chatty + giggles outing with him. we went public because we thought of the gaia yesterday :p more like saving the kachings lah.

stoopid me was wearing wedges yesterday. forgot that i was about to do more walks than usual. so went to town to get myself a pair of shoes and i realized that the pair is ala chanel lor. hahaha. ala ala only.

i swear we were the naughtiest and loudest couple in the mrt cabin. i don't give a hoot lah. they always turn to look when we burst into giggles. and for one day, he was stress-free of driving. good for him lor.

and ouh ouhhhh!!! apparently, an idiot has been speculating some non-trivial matters about moi. and this idiot has the fucking cheek to prove herself/himself that those "facts" have a solid ground to it with evidences. ouhhhhhhhh geram siak akak. kau ni bengap ke bodoh ke bahlul ke bengang? kau siapa nak gossip bukan2 pasal aku? kau jealous ke boss sayang aku? kau gila ke apa fitnah aku minum arak? KAU SIUMAN KE TIDAK BODOH??? i can't even fucking stand the smell of beers and liquors and u dare to fucking say im an alcohol consumer? fine i admit i fucking smoke my lungs out. and fine i admit i used to be a hardcore clubber. i think you forgot the fact that i used to have hairstyles that rock the world. why don't you go and speculate about that now?

but your ultimate stupid "fact" that someone waits for me everyday at work at 1830hrs seriously deserves the Oscar awards for the best try on acting. dear fucker, i am a fucking serious workaholic and a perfectionist. i am not one of those who leaves the office when it's time to. i am not one of those who talks much while working. infact, i hate it when people are trying to strike conversations with me while my head is buried in my cubicle. infact, i loathe noises and unnecessary chats. and im not going to share with you my earliest and latest time i stayed in the office. but i wonder where did you come up with that stupid "fact" of yours? who is this other man who waits for me patiently everyfuckingday at 1830hrs? who and what are you trying to prove? what will you accomplish from spreading lies about me? you must be eagerly waiting for my downfall somewhere out there...arent you? thing is, I DON'T FUCKING OWE YOU A LIVING SO JUST FUCK OFF!

my lifetime is sure gonna be naggy at me later once he reads this entry but with all due respect, i don't care. because those "facts" that this fucker speculated about me have been sent to one of the VIP in my life come the near future.

when in actual fact, i'm really a nice girl.

so fuck off :) just go fucking fuck off.

P.S, I Love Him

2007-09-08T01:03:00.000+08:00

I'd just finished reading PS, I Love You. Thanks to yanyan or otherwise, i would have bought john grisham instead. Felt for some thriller miller but changed my mind. Call me a romantic sap if it makes you happy i don't care. It's just WORTH reading it. Sooooooooooo can't wait for the movie lorrr! Remind me to bring along a box of tissue to the cinema.

P.S, I Love Him!

erm...

2007-09-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

there's plenty to share.

like the wonderful 010907.

like the beautiful ppl there.

but i guess i'll only share with frames.

so iman, hurry up on those pics already!

OMG

2007-08-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

i'm having butterflies and it feels like there are chimpanzees swinging in my tummy. i remember around this time of last year, i was in a healing process after 2 weeks of being a zombie. i remember around this hour, this date of last year, i was at home, feeling damn shagged after 8 laps in the pool. yes i can really swim during emotional rollercoaster. and then dian called me up and fetched me and drove over to her place. we had quick forty winks, put our best dress on, our make-up on. so we were comtemplating ; to womad or to rouge? it was a 50 to 50. then thanks to chut and aypah (for not favouring the womad choice), so to rouge it was.

then we sang our ketiaks out to molina's. i drank my sorrows with coke and pussyfoot. then thanks also to snoopy doggy dog, we exchanged our first smiles with each other while the last episode was blasting.

that mole below his lips ala cindy crawford melted me for a split second.

and then the conversations between him, aypah n i. as if the 3 of us have known each other for centuries. then the "see you around" line. then aypah came to the rescue. thank you thank you thank you. otherwise, i wouldn't be here at home smiling to myself while typing these events. i can't imagine life without him. i simply just can't.

yesterday he asked me if i would like to change any of his weaknesses. i thought for awhile and then it was a hell no thank you. his temper during traffic jams is just who he is. he nags at me because he loves me. and vice versa to him. he doesn't want any part of me to change.

and the talks and plans of our future. i'm really looking forward to it. i love i love i love and thats hot.

so it will happen in 6 days time.

and i never ever want the butterflies and swinging chimpanzees in my tummy to ever disappear.

Like A Toy

2007-08-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

There are times. Times like these, like now, like you think you have everything going on and you're just comfortable the way you are. And then you get in too deep with your comfort zone that you somehow begin to shun away other priorities in life. Normal everyday things, or even people suddenly turn into furnitures that you somehow oversee. And then there are news, gossips, drama and lyrics to pull you right back but it usually only lasts for a moment. And then there's a saying nothing lasts forever. If nothing lasts forever, then what is there to live? What is there to look forward to? Do we ever learn on not taking things for granted?

Feed me with contained promises.
Love me unconditionally.
Because really, nothing lasts forever.

My Lifetime Ahbwee is right when he says I need to clip my nails already. I hate typo errors caused by my nails. Thinking that I won't be doing any mani for awhile, I'd rather just.

Back to work tmrw. Back to feeling deprived of weekends. Back to counting the days till I meet my bf. Fyi, i only see him once or twice a week. Sometimes 3 or 4 if lady luck appears. I ain't complaining. I have a lifetime with him. But sometimes. Just sometimes, I need to puke when ppl go like "i don't know how you survive with only a day or two of meet-ups with ur bf" or "my bf has a meeting so i have to go home on my own, inconvenient sey!". Like seriously, I feel like yanking her hair. Where has all the All my independent women, throw dem hands up at me gone to?

Well gf, i'm sorry for having a life.

gila kau

2007-08-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

ikutkan hati aku, nak ajer aku bunuh kau.

tak tahu kenal untung.

tak sedar diri.

on another note, i fucking hate animal abusers.

and i cant fucking wait to move out.

it's E-L-Y-A not elia

2007-08-08T12:18:00.000+08:00

Ok so i just helped mummy goreng the fishes. I smell of oil now. Oily oily ikan goreng. Eeu!

Got the whole day off from work today. And I took the initiative of not answering office calls just for today. How considerate. :)

Before preparing for Victoria Theatre, let me upload some vavavoom frames.

Sigh....yes yes i know.

We're hot. Like totally smoking hot.

So you think you can fucking dance?

2007-08-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

Ahem ahem.

Ladies & Gentlemen,

Catch me again like you never did before (except for some Broadricians) this evening. Tonight. 1930hrs. Victoria Theatre shall be my playground for today. My name for today shall be Anggerik. So watch me while i do my thang.

So, last week i told the bf i was deprived. Of having pure fun which obviously excludes gambling, clubbing and karaoke-ing. Those norm things are just getting on my nerves especially when it comes to bad music. But that's another story already lah. And so the bf brought me to Sungai Buloh! Yayyyyy! We bird-watched. We enjoyed molesting each other in the reserve bkoz there weren't many visitors. We saw many many kodomo (yea yea it's actually komodo so excuse me being cute here)dragons. And we fed the fish while enjoying our ice-cream and root beers. There weren't many birds to watch but the nature reserve always makes me go wowwww. And we practiced our too-wooow too-wooow there. Trying so hard to attract some birds but of course we failed hard too. We laughed to the thought of stranding Aypah at the reserve with all the wonderful birds pecking her. Hahahaha. Pendek story, gua love bf gua.

And wats up with all those "dancers" who yayapapaya trying so hard to show their thang at velvet dragon? Nyampah. Back to earth lah yooohooooooooo.

And i really need (and obviously want more) of that beach holiday.

But life is being such a bitch.

So, au revoir.

I like

2007-07-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

sigh...beautiful ain't it?

back to basics i shall. who needs air-con when mother earth surrounds you?

SOP = suck owl's pantat

2007-07-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

apparently, writing up SOP and flow charts on carparking system is worse than writing economics. im trying to get it done by this week but that's very impossible like duh right.

i miss him

this weekend. what are your plans? catch me "live" in expo this weekend. like you've never seen me before. im back to my roots ya'll!

i miss him ouh so much

i need a quick getaway. let's stay in ritz for a night. and then let's mess up fullerton's giant bed. and soak ourself in marriot's pool.

i miss paragon. and wisma. and taka. and vivo. i miss sisley.

but i miss haig rd most. that chinese red lantern hanging at the corridor is just yucky. and the windows seem to be always closed. kalau takut nah habuk masuk rumah, kalau malas nah nak sapu, buat apa tinggal rumah tingkat satu? denggg. and i miss chuteh. i miss the cool air at my "own" yard. i miss doing laundry at the balcony. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!

banyan tree. bora-bora. banyan tree. bora-bora. here i come?

Stupid fark

2007-07-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

The gambling session last night at Chacha's new crib was suicidal. But like they never fail to bring me "up" before, I almost forgot what happened on Friday. I almost forgot about that nasty email I got from the bitch of all mother bitches.

Stupid stupid fark.

Ey bitch. Haven't you learn not to use singlish in emails? Especially those which was cc-ed to big bosses? Despite your wrong choice of words, I envy you for insisting you're the righteous one. Aww bitch. You've been with SATS for many many years and you're still clerical officer. Something must be awfully wrong right?

And get over that hongkee bitch already. Don't make me throw her "perfect" files to your sagging boobs. How about you join that hongkee bitch? Mmmm...maybe resign? And make yourself and ourself live happily ever after.

How about that?

Aside from work issues, I love you, you hot Farid you!

Virgo + Aquarius = Us

2007-07-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

When Virgo and Aquarius join together in a love match, they bring out either the best or worst in one another. Virgo has a more rigid, theory-oriented approach to life. The poetic Aquarian approach, on the other hand, knows nothing of the scientific world. But these two lovers may actually thrive on their differences; they grow together as they learn about one another.

Aquarius tends to passionate and temperamental while Virgo operates more methodically, and with little fuss. Virgo is very organized and levelheaded. Aquarius is modern and finds routine unthinkable. Virgo will find Aquarius exciting but may become annoyed trying to probe this artist's mind. Aquarius will be upset by Aquarius's criticism, but will find the solid base Virgo provides very appealing.

Virgo is an Earth Sign and Aquarius is an Air Sign. Aquarius moves through life seeking pure spiritual enlightenment, while Virgo is more intellectual. Virgos seek the 'how' and 'why' of a situation, while Aquarians simply focus on what tickles their fancy, practical or not, and usually ask 'what next?' At times each partner may find it difficult to understand the other's perspective. Conflicts can arise in this relationship if becomes obsessed with realizing the perfect relationship or Aquarius seems too aloof. Both partners must appreciate and respect one another's view of the world, and see that they have a lot to learn from their partner.

Virgo is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Aquarius can be unreasonable, opinionated and stubborn. Both partners are very passionate and intent when working toward their goals. Virgo adapts well to any social situation. Virgo is pleased to help Aquarius as long as their efforts are appreciated. Conflicts are rare, and are usually resolved by more Virgo's accommodating nature than by any concessions on Aquarius's part. If the two understand they're working together for a common goal, it's much easier for them to reach it. Virgo is more realistic than Aquarius will be more willing to budge to avoid a heated fight.

What's the best aspect of the Virgo-Aquarius relationship? It's that when they come together, their combined ambition drives them to do miraculous deeds. This relationship tends to be informative, enlightening and a pleasure to both participants.

Princess cut it is...

Sweet September

2007-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

I almost died. Dian was right. The anxiety got too overwhelming.

Come here to me.

With my widest arms I welcome thee.

This journey I'll remember forever.

Come to me my Sweet September.

And congrats to mon amour on the birth of Hanna Yusra. Can't wait to watch that little tike grow!

Come tmrw? Back to effing work it is. Followed by a hot movie date with my hot sayang. Can't effing wait.

DVDs fever

2007-07-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

and oh, can i pls pls pls get complete season of grey's anatomy, OC, Felicity, ally mcbeal, friends, gilmore girls and heroes.

i think 2 more months is more than enough to plan. :p

no prison break for me bkoz milo is hotter than miller thank you.

watch out for september. if ur planning to wake up when september ends, im gonna effing kill you.

heh.

MC MC MC

2007-07-04T12:39:00.000+08:00

thanks to last night, i woke up with a super high fever and an effing migraine. and im just too effing lazy to visit mister doctor bkoz i still have my migraine dosage. the last thing i ever wanted my migraine to do is affect my hair and grow uban(s). eeu and choy! my fever is wearing off after the coldest quick shower i had but my head is throbbing still. i don't know why im giving myself a self pity charity so it's gonna be a sucky entry.

anyways, is it me or is it really happening? i could hear tampines swimming complex calling out to me to drown myself there. i could hear NTUC calling me out to the bakery session and bake some storms in my kitchen. i could hear my office screaming at me to come back to work and clear the neverending effing work.

500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500.

how many 500s are there?

i need some aromatherapy here but my essence oil bottle refuses to give in to me. nak ajer aku campak botol ni.

500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500.

how many 500s are there?

i don't need anymore salt. just give me more mint.
it sucks growing up. eh no. it sucks being an effing adult.
and i've sworn to be an anti taka, anti paragon, oh hell, anti all shopping areas (and that includes you, vivo). but not that neighbourhood mall. my precious watsons is in it so i'll spare her. isnt this what economics ppl call opportunity cost? the most valuable forgone alternative or the next best alternative.

500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500 500.

how many 500s are there?

$

2007-07-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

my worst nightmare has surfaced.
she found out.

sudah malas deh

2007-06-29T12:44:00.000+08:00

i swear there are thousands of crazy whacked frames to be uploaded here to show off my bangkok trip, the birthday celebration at rouge and more hot pictures of me and ahbwee. i've been wanting to play with the slideshow thingy but by the time i'm infront of my pc, my semangat meter just descended. but, those who are my friends in my friendster, then have viewing the steamy frames.

those who are my "family" in my multiply, have fun viewing a lifetime of my frames!

and i took a day of time off today. woohoo. TGIF! but ahbwee, TGIFU. i miss you. come back from reservist already. actually not much of a diff. because we seldom meet on weekdays but still! the rushed telephone conversations suck. except for midnight, relax sikit. but just less than a day more and he's out. and i'm fetching you tmrw in that rihanna dress so wait for me, you hot stuff you.

and i wanna go for a photoshoot session at kallang stadium with my polaroid, anna sui's mono and lumix before the stadium poofed into thin air.

anyone wants to accompany me swimming tonight? my packs are disappearing lah. bleargh!

and i saaaaaaaaaayang elyo. apparently, i am getting myself what my boss promised me a month ago. well, no need to know lah what benefits i'm getting. nanti buat mata orang tak betul tu merah ajer. pastu ada blog war lagi. malas betul.

and my property manager just realized i have a wide forehead. like a jendul lah. then he said ppl with that kind of foreheads are street smart ppl. we definitely will go far if we thrive harder and be less lazy. we tend to feel contented at our comfort zone but in fact, we are smart assess and geniuses. he said he's always known i'll be one of my boss' jewel, looking at my position in less than 2 yrs with elyo. and lain-lain lagi. betul punya angkat aku. but too bad, he's resigning already. heard wing tai and temasek holding is calling him. you go man!

sigh...so later i'll be out. first visit to axs to pay the neverending bills. and then to get that temp license. and then to haig road to fulfil my haig rd roti john craving. and maybe tapao some for the family. and then........manicure? salon? i know. pet safari! woohoo.

ok bye kengkawan.

Stereotypes are just sadly sheltered fools

2007-06-09T14:32:00.001+08:00

To the streets' stereotypes,

OBVIOUSLY, you are just trying to get on me. but seriously, stereotypes like you turn me on. turn me on so much i have to blog about it.

and killer, OBVIOUSLY you too don't know me and my friends that well. what makes you say i'm the only admin honey? and who are these successful aka managers of all sorts of friends do i have here? you are confusing me. i know my friends but they don't fit that bill. at least, not yet. and even if they are big shots, no i wont feel intimidated. that's the last thing i would feel. i'm going for a holiday for a week. and my company is just apparently too dependant on me that they tried their luck asking me to postpone my holidays. and you OBVIOUSLY have no idea how many sites i am currently taking charge to the fullest gear. and admin or secretary or whatever it is, is just a designation. what matters more to me, is my payslip. and betul jugak cakap korang, melayu memang gini. tengok orang naik sikit ajer, mata merah. daripada korang feeling feeling nak jadi successful macam aku kan, go start sending out your resumes go! no use reading my blog trying to think of my flaws to make yourself feel accomplished enough. jangan asyik duduk depan computer baca pasal hidup orang lain yang tengah senang nih. nanti buat sakit hati sendiri ajer. apa lah korang semua ini!

my dearest BFF and i are climbing the corporate ladders respectively, differently and in our own unique lines. and there is always a pattern among us. and i believe, we will be some big shots one day, in our respective line of careers. but just not now not today. but i'm sure one day, insyaAllah.

and when we are, i'm still somehow very sure we need to do our own admin work. but OBVIOUSLY, we are very humble natured ppl and we wont be going around telling ppl selling pratas are stupid. the provision shop mamas are stupid.

you don't need to know how much i love elyo. you don't need to know where i'll be in elyo by next year. you don't need to know the smiles i got from mum nowadays bkoz of the kachings i'm contributing. and you don't need to know the promises i received from my boss. so go ahead, sue this admin. but wait, got enough money to hire an attorney or not?

The key to realizing a dream is to focus not on success but significance - and then even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning.
Oprah Winfrey

If A is success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z i keeping your mouth shut.
Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

So, i reckon i'll just have to keep my mouth shut.

Tampines makes me broke.

2007-06-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

i read yanyan's latest entry and then thought to myself; what chasing dreams have made me into.

i used to think pleated hair and dreadlocks are like totally cool until i told my bf off that i actually self-proclaimed i'm not that cool to carry out that hairstyles. when in fact, 3 or 4 years back, whenever my hairstylist has something crazy and wacked, i was his faithful guinea pig.

school and part-time jobs were never obstacles to party hard and meet my gfs and bfs and God knows who else i used to have the time to entertain. i survived the morning lectures, the hot scorching mengantukkan tutorials and the late night outs.

and all i want to do now is to clear those invoices (left by the previous old hongkee BITCH) before i go for my holiday. and trust me, there are over hundreds of them i swear i'm not kidding. so for those who think i got my often increments thru under-table blowjobs, fuck you. for those who think the job scope of an administrator only deals with phone calls and self mani-pedi behind the desk, fuck you too. lets just hope i could clear another 80 invoices like i did these couple of days my tmrw. and it's draining me out. me eyes are getting kero-er as the days go by. my migraine attacks are more frequent nowadays. my hot milo is my only remedy which always quickly turns cold after 8mins in the super cold aircon office. and these are just mere complains from me. not that i'm hating my job.

in fact, i'm loving every invoice in it.

but i hate what i've become today. for now. for this second. i need more than a holiday.

Save Me from Myself

2007-06-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

gorgeous super talented hot xtina is coming here! alas! yayyyyyyy!!!!

but her tickets are too hot that it will burn my wallet downright thru my pockets. damn it lah!!! i have most of her unreleased tracks ok! but i cant go bkoz too many things happening this june. which will leave me close to nothing. ahhhh fark fark fark. n no. i wouldn't wanna use my other savings account to buy her tix. i've used enuff. unless any of you out there somehow got last minute biz trips or u think ur pet will still have that hot fever on her concert date and kind enough to sell it to me at a very much affordable price but i think i can just dream away the odds lah.

i love her bkoz i can relate my life, journey and experiences thru her tracks. its strangely real and then i'll wonder if she went thru those kinda things before. her vocals obviously deserve many many thumbs up. i somehow misplaced her albums (1st, 2nd and a couple of spanish singles) during the moving house transition last year. like suwar suwey betul.

but anyhows, here's my current fav track from her. best thing is, her songs are like those evergreen ones. dengar banyak kali pun tak jelak nyah!

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

Ooh, whoa yes, mm

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from my..
Myself

Karma

2007-06-02T02:40:00.000+08:00

Another good karma smacked me in my face a few hours ago. And Alhamdulillah, the person took an effort and initiative to send it back to my place. I would definitely feel very naked without my Nokia.

To Rashidin from Starbucks East Point, thank you very much for being the good samaritan you are. Thank you for accepting my little token of appreciation (after loads of persuasion and complaining to my mum openly that he's refusing the token). Thank you for not being a thief when you could simply switched off my hp, throw my precious sim card and be the biggest nabey in the world. Thank you for bothering to send it to my place when I could have collected it tmrw. I can never say enough thank you-s. You might not read this but hey! Whoever out there knows him, give him a pat and a hi-5 for me ok!

Kudos to you. If only I'm still in the F&B line, I definitely would have bought you from Starbucks.

You know...it is in fact a very good thing to have a clean heart. Not that I'm self-claiming that I'm the purest of all. But once in awhile, it really doesn't hurt to offer a hand to strangers. It really does pay off. TRUST ME.

A man who sent my wallet all the way to my doorstep. But I was working and too bad, didn't get to see him. With all my important cards still intact. I hope he knows I'm grateful too.

Many many many kudos to these men.

another one

2007-05-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

i enjoy being in my office. i enjoy watching airplanes fly by; thinking - where are those ppl heading to? honeymoon? destination of their lifetime? family holidays? going elsewhere to send their grievances? are they sad? exhilirated? anxious?

i didnt know how much pain you felt until these past few days. sometimes i just wanna staple my ears to filter some words spoken. and that other you, what in the world have got into you for these past couple of years? what is it exactly would you like to accomplish in life? why aren't you like what you were last time? it kills me to see her sad. and the only few things that has been keeping her accompany is that big black box, my hamsters and the kitchen.

this is part of the reason why i enjoy being in the office so much. sometimes, staying up so late just to get away and i wish i didnt care but i do but you, you just wouldn't listen and refuse to take advices! this is the reason why i would rather much be a workaholic so i dont have to face whatever things i faced before. or so i thought. my social life is depleting but i dont care. my hair is jet black i dont care. i aint that funky elya who was always seen at every scenes anymore i just dont fucking care!!! i just want the both of you to be the best team like you were last time. the portraits taken are so deceiving. i want to kill all those strangers and idiots and imbecile kaninas who somehow managed to brainwash you and turned you into this monster right now. gosh i cant believe i fucking described you as that but yes, for now that is what you are.

WHY CANT THEY JUST SEE US HAPPY?

TELL ME WHY FUCKING WHYYYY??!

MA = Managing Agent

2007-05-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

My first day in SICC1 was like bleargh. New scope of work. Boring background music. Politics here and there. It was totally like bleargh. Big bosses are everywhere in that place so I could bid my t-shirt and jeans "uniform" byebye. And the smoking corner pun, hmph! corner kebabai. jauh siul nak jalan. lagi2 sekarang dah kena pakai ala corporate keparat sikit, nanti orang ingat tangkap jambu. this is time that i cut down my ciggies. but come lunch time, i'll smoke like never before bkoz apparently, there are al-fresco seating in the canteen. coolness kan. then can watch kapal terbang fly here fly there. but then again, bleargh bkoz i cant share my enthusiasm with anyone...yet. so it was very much of a chore for me to keep mum.

the meeting just now made me realized what's actually in for me. i almost died after hearing certain things. these 3 coming months are gonna be hell for me. but im still crossing my fingers for that T3 project. and that airline house too. and that's why, i deserve the 5 days 4 nights holiday in bang freaking kok this coming june! woohoooooo. cik marlia, nak ikut? saya tahu awak dah rindu mat2 bangkok kan?

and cik marlia, fyi saya pun PA aka admin aka secretary officer ok. hahaha. tapi takper. saya paham sangat masalah awak tu. certain companies should minus the too many hors and lahs. eh cannot! bkoz they are forever searching for "fluent in mandarin speaking" perrr. no wonder lorr. all these chinchongwaliwali. kadang2 mereka yang ingat saya ni lembap. jokers kan mereka tu semua! ah!

and unfortunately, liverpool didnt get to kiss that hot trophy. but nevermind. they'll never walk alone! and yesh, boo manYOO. lalalatamplong! and ok nak swipe2 in milan? hmmm...kena mintak approval form dulu dari bf. approval for using his hot black swiping card. then while in milan, we could try to get the players to kiss our pretty arses perhaps? hmmmm...hahahahahaaaa!

bf is now dancing with so many hotties in i dunno what that new club is called which replaced momo. luckily he messaged me. so many hotties = fadhil grinding bf while bf is super sober and is seeing 10 fadhils at a time. ouh boys! bad boys!

dian! mengucap! jangan kanciong ok!

je suis desolee

2007-05-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

im utterly disappointed.
im tired. but not jaded.
im still breathing thank God.

and im sorry for being so forgetful at an early age.
im sorry i forgot to tell you that single fact which existed last saturday.
im sorry for not reminding you.
im sorry for not confirming it with you.
you might think im over-reacting over small things like this when u said you're ok.
but just so you know......

je suis desolee. beacoup.

sama izzit?

2007-05-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

sama izzit? nyehhhhhh

early mid-life crisis??? already? hell no.

2007-05-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

for my best friend, who is apparently not having the time of her life right now, go
here.

i hope this helps. i trust you to make a final decision right now. you have always helped me making loads of dumb uneccessary decisions like what to wear, who to date, which to buy and so on so forth without you being much of a fickle. ive always trusted your judgements; hence here i am today.

Time for self-reflection

People usually go about making a career change the wrong way, says Andrea Kay, a Cincinnati-based career counselor and author of "Life's a Bitch and Then You Change Careers."

"They say, 'what's out there?'" Kay said. "Wrong question. The question is, 'What's in me? What are my most joyful skills? What do I know about? What do I want to know about it?" she said.

Your imagination will come in handy, she said. "Your fears are going to get in your way," Kay said. "If you cannot have a clear picture and imagine what it is you see yourself doing, it's going to be hard to convince others that it is doable."

Please be reminded that i love you.

we are the PoweR girls

2007-05-13T13:16:00.000+08:00

after months of preparations, the event is indeed a successful one. i love.
despite the choppy waters, i dare to say the whole of Elyo was having a rolling good time. there were the 112 lucky draw prizes to be won. aww shucks. my manager's the one who went home with the home theatre system. i think im gonna bribe him lah.

i walked away with $30 NTUC voucher, munchy's hazelnut wafer cubes and 2 door gifts! one of which i gave to my ahbwee for being a sweetie pie everyday. i gave him the hot neon orange time capsule thingy, the one with alarm clock and month, date and day displaying on it.

and i thought that's it. my day ended with my NTUC voucher. with nothing else to put my wishing hope in.

but my ahbwee got me a HOT PINK PSP lahhh!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! tak payah tunggu gaji. dah dapat pun. heeeee....thanks honeybwee!!! i promise to take care of it just like how im taking care of our black bear hammies. i love i love i love. thank you for acknowledging the madness i went thru this past month. and i know just how much we adore each other. awwwww....thanks honeybwee!

ok. now i want to play my sims 2 on my hot PINK PSP already. later im going for a quickie to the mall to look for my memory stick and PSP pouch and it's screen cover. my PSP vagina has just been popped.

eeee so crude.

but that's hot.

most boring Friday

2007-05-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

i hated today. i mean, yesterday. im still loathing it sooo much that i havent got any energy to get out and smoke. it is 1 freaking 20 in the morning and i'm still doing some last minute touch up on tmrw's event. yes, tmrw is the day. starts all the way from 3pm till 10pm and then im back to the lalayayyay lane. tmrw off to MV Harbour Queen it is. my committee members have painly been organising things for the past few months that im telling myself to be lucky and maybe bring home our third prize? which is LG DVD home player system with 4 amplifiers. i tell you i love our suppliers lah. so bon voyage to me.

the preparations are what been holding me up.
2 monthly reports are what been heating me up.
and some other stuffs have been fuming me up.
and i thought i was hyperventilating just now then i thought to myself stop over-reacting and i only became better after being forced by one of the technician to gulp down coffee. i hate coffee. i don't drink coffee. with mocha in it is an exception. and the day only turned out worse when my darling bf got duty call from chestnut. go eat peanuts! spoilt my day. spoilt our day. we were planning to frighten ourself with that don't look back horror. bleargh.

then i did my mani and pedi. but it just wasnt satisfying enough. it is very hard to please a girl who has been fuming for so long now.

i got fucking pissed just now that i pulled out my office phone wire for almost half a day. aaaaahh...silence is golden. if can i want to throw away my fax machine also.

and babe, kalau nak pakai make-up, especially kalau nak cover up kepimple-an di mukamu, atau kehodohan, sapu sikit concealer atau bedak sampai ke leher. tak vogue siak muka mcm tepung. tapi leher terus 2 tones darker. apa sajer.

and gila, satu kali lagi kau nak try kau punya luck, canteen mentin. i swear im gonna humiliate you infront of your dumb friends. arent rolling eyes enough for you as a hint? plus with the openly whatever look? stop your "come on give it to me baby" smirk. kau disgusting tahu tak?

and pisang, treat ladies with a little more respect can or not? berbual iya-iya. tapi depan bini tahu pun kau mana dunia mana langit.

and hey. sell away your airwave and pay back my money first can. i want to take my fucking degree lah!!! and buy a smacking new laptop. and my pink PSP. and dont clad ur kids with too many branded clothes lah. you, of all people should know that kids grow faster than we can spell out f-a-s-t. so obviously, they are gonna outgrow their clothes rite. ok ok. kirakan nak keep up to the standards lah? who ever set those standards? come on lah. eh ok lah ok lah. go clad them with high brands from top to bottom. just give me back my many grands.

and apa gunanya ada handphone kalau aku call kau tak angkat? jgn divert pat office lah tolong. aku call bila ada benda mustahak ajer. bukan sesuka hati. jadi tolong lah cooperate sikit.

fucking cheebye week.

I Am His Everything

2007-05-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

he asked me to check out that hot michael buble's latest track.

he said i am everything like the lyric.

then i know i am his everything.

and i just checked it out in the office just now; after another long day of multi-taskings and answering to stupid questions. it just made me smile lah. and what coincidence. while i was reading the lyric half-way, that my boo song blasted from my mobile and who else could it be but him?

and im proud of him for not buying ciggies after work. he actually tahan from work ok. and i think that's such a big step for a dragon like him. he said ahbwee i want to go kedai buy ciggies. then i told him no. must save petrol (though the shop is not that far) and save strength and save money.

and we went public last saturday to catch spidey3 with aypah n elfy. he's just so cute when he started to get rimas and mabuk from riding the midnight bus. poor ahbwee. he reminds me of myself. i hate taking 197 to ngeeann last time. stupidest longest ride ever.

i have been fighting with elyo's demons ever since the raise. i feel like i deserve 3 times more now. i got back home from HQ close to midnight last night. and with more tenders closing, that only meant more paper work for me. more paper work, more trees get cut down. im such a recycle paper freak. i get super duper pissed when i find out the guys not using recycle papers for not so necessary stuffs and when they photocopy single sided but not double sided and sometimes treat papers like their parents are the ones who planted the trees. save the earth lah dammit! CONSERVE!!!

i love elyo. i love getting compliments from big shots. but i would love elyo more if they could give me a pink PSP perhaps? im not asking too much kan? HAH!

and him. he always manages to calm me down at the end of the day.

he still offers to fetch me at changi from yishun. obviously, there are always rewards for him waiting.

he still said im the hottest he ever had.

but he also said it would be so much hotter if we could orgy with dita, scarlett, avril and so many more. if they are so desperate, charge them mahal2 ok ahbwee! nothing comes for free!

for me, i'll just stick with milo and miller lah. ni dua ajer dah cukup hot.

tapi my ahbwee is still the hottest.

bwekk!

sob sob

2007-05-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

one of my cute hammies just died. and i actually witnessed her last breath. she was the smallest as compared to her siblings. and her bunny teeth are too small for a 2-week old hammie. i cant believe she died. she was ok in the noon. she only became weaker around maghrib. and mummy said dah memang lumrah; at least one will sure die one. and i failed to prove her wrong.

i buried her among my plants and vases, wishing that somehow someday tulips and beautiful flowers will grow at her grave.

it was nice knowing you for 2 weeks. and i hope you do really love the cabbage i fed you.

rest in peace, qishti.

that's hot

2007-05-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey sexy.

have i mentioned bf and i are over 240 days already? cepat kan?

and have i mentioned that we sang this track together in the car, while we were on our way to simpang from sentosa, after our first coffee, after sharing a jug of green tea together? thinking of that first outing with him still gives me all the jingling jingling jinggles shminggles.

and that's hot.

and then i got attracted to his mole. moleeeeeee moleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ok i want to play the sims now.

elyaelyo

2007-04-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

eh i forgot to boast.
bkoz this is my blog. it is where i boast and action action right. besides the normal bitchings and yada yadi yadu.
i mean, look at xiaxue or xiaopentan. i mean, i received something which is way much better than a nose job. a plastic surgery only get you so far.

but this. it gives me this triumph feeling back when the last time i had it was so long ago. it feels so much better than the goals i scored for our netball team during the poly days. but then again, nothing can beat bringing home a BMW. coupe some more. ouh well, i'm not lucky enuff these days i guess. (besides being lucky to meet my adorable lifetime).

not having the lady luck by my side much nowadays only means one thing. and that is to work fucking hard. even if it means i have to work more than 10hrs a day. and naturally, bosses will just be bosses. they see you work late. they see you managing double and sometimes, even triple of your workload. then they think. think. and think. is she worth the raise?

and voila!

i just got mine.

i might just be elya@elyosea.com.sg in the time being.

elyaelyo. im loving it.

for now.

benji, dance for me

2007-04-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

i nak PSP
i nak PSP merah jambu
bkoz it is very jambu like me
i nak PSP
i nak PSP merah jambu
i nak PSP pink
i nak i nak I NAKKKKKKKKK!!!!

and somebody pls. ban whistles from mediacorp recording studios. irritants. siaow. why must be very shrilly.

and Benji, come on now dance for me.

speaking of dancing, i miss dancing till my partner n i sweat all over.
so now, give me some missy.

Elya's Summer Night Dream

2007-04-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

salut.

my dreams nowadays have been so far....weird.
a pink PSP with 1gb MMC and 2 games for only $200+??
a huge increase in my payslip?
brother tango-ing?
i dont know.
but if only that pink PSP is a real like totally real deal, damn sweet lah!
and my hammies are lovely. they are turning to black from pink. i bet the bulus gonna grow anytime soon. and passerby honey, my hamsters just sayang their hammies too much i guess dats why they havent got any appetite to makan them.

and i think a stranger returning back my oh-so-valuable wallet is an example of good karma and not just by pure luck. u just have to be a good kick-ass samaritan when the time comes and tadaaaaaaaa! it pays off. i love good karma.

i had this hugeeee craving for aglio olio olio aglio but decided to settle for crunchie instead, which has yet to be eaten.

i wish singapore idol has live orchestra and back-up singers then maybe i would try my to make the best noise.

tick tock.
time.
time.
time.
consistency is so important.
tick tock.
consistency in everything.
from billings, to monthly report, to cash recons, to friendships, to relationships.
but sometimes, just sometimes when things start to reach the comfortable level, it always tends to get a little too comfortable. and then that's when i wish elyo would suddenly fly me to france for 6 months. not to fuck around. but to at least create a little impact and that pure missing feeling wherever it suits.
i do not like this.

Rinai tawamu sentiasa di benak ku
seperti kau sentiasa dengan ku
ke sini lah dan larut di pelukku

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2007-04-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

i was checking on miu miu and qiu qiu the moment i woke up and i saw a wriggling thing which i first thought was a baby cockroach and i was like wtf are you doing in there? or so i thought. until i brought the cage to real light, i went eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkk!

my bf and i have just become proud grandparents of 5 hammies!

miu miu are just sooo over protective of his little ones while qiu qiu just decided to releks and lepak one corner.

awwwww........

gerek

2007-04-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

so, netball today rocks. at least my legs are not that kejung like last week. but i think i sprained my ankle. and i almost fall onto the opponent's WD. sedap you i "terpukul" telinga dia gitu. eh really accidental lah. :) then dapat tolak2 dia dari belakang. stress kerja sumer hilang. gerek betul lah main netball.

i know im supposed to be sleeping already since tmrw im off to JB with bf and his friends. but i just want to remind the world again that i adore him. he's down with fever + flu + apa2 lagi yg sewaktu dengannya. rest well honey. and get well soon ok! i know ur a good boy and u eat ur medicines consistently without being reminded so expect a reward from me soon u good boy u.

and aydah actually made loads of friends within two weeks. woww! beli nombor lah besok!

and happy birthday again nanipop! really glad you love the surprise. all thanks to abg kamal! cannot wait for monday lor. if only there's a runway for me, i promise you'll be the proudest fashion designer on that day! wahaha. but dats not possible right. and i cant possibly go a step further in size 38 shoes without tripping. oh well. all i have to do to earn a free dinner is just be pretty for 5 mins! yayy!

i love my bff.
i love our netball team. (even if we suck big time. even if i played street soccer on a netball court)
saving the best for the last, i love Md Farid. for being a sweetheart. for being my best friend. for being one of the bff. for being totally himself.

and dats sooper hot!

Extinction is forever. CONSERVE dammit!

2007-04-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

I love i love i love God's every little creations. That is why im loving central on wednesdays at 2200hrs. The documentary always get me teary looking at the food chains and the wonderful migration of the animals and the grand canyon and rivers and water falls. haiz...i love i love i love.

And dian, i finally found my total perfect bra. With no instilled push ups, my perfect bra fits me perfectly and never complain supporting me. I love my perfect bra. My perfect man. My ahbwee.

life so far

2007-04-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

last week around this time today, my bro got married. aypah got engaged (surprisingly with elfy :p). qiu qiu and miu miu got irritated with me bkoz i didnt get to say hi to them often.

and last night's netball game made my legs wobly and i had to walk with perfecly straight legs. nanti orang ingat aku nak step bontot jek. sakit siul kaki gua.

and ive seen a few profiles with just girls in their list. like an art gallery. losers.

and im keeping my mouth shut about so many things nowadays. it sucks swallowing. it sucks not having my thots heard. but it just have to be that way. and im usually quite an extrovert so this is quite a chore for me. i dont want people to think of me as the petty, whiny one. so i'll just shut up. have i told you it sucks to shut up?

i'll just go back writing in my secret diary for awhile now.

but before i do, congrats again to aypah for becoming his half-halally. u guys made the journey halfway now so its another half to go. 2009 it is insyaAllah.

to my cousins, aunties and uncles, stop asking me when my date will be can. you want fast fast, then you all have to sponsor both me and him can? if cannot sponsor, then pls stop the questions!!!!

congrats to my abg cik for becoming the husband of a beautiful wife (i know he doesnt know i have a blog but so what rite). Alhamdulillah you made it finally. despite sometimes u have asked me to tell her u were sleeping but instead u went out fishing. but its ok its alrite. asalkan kau tak buat benda2 merepek lagi sudah. i still remember when daddy blew up bkoz he found a condom in ur bag so many donkey years ago. hahahaha! and remember the double decker bed we used to have? and then we would sprawl all the mattresses we have and all the pillows our salivas have stained on the floor and we would imagine that we were all in a helicopter and would jump down freestyle stunts to the self-cushioned floor. and i still remember you used to have this harley davidson hankerchief which i always played with when i was baking a hot cake in the toilet. and you cleaned me up and scolded me for playing with ur cool hankerchief. and there was once when i called out for you to clean me up but u buat bodoh only n thats when i learnt how to cebok myself. i cant remember exactly which one of u twin brothers who taught me how to dry myself. we used to always shower together but stopped when u started to develop bulus here n there n my breasts were starting to show. hahahaha. i know i have never uttered the three words to both of you (even if i have, it was sooooooooooo long ago), but i do love both of you. for your non-chalant behaviour towards me most of the time, for always picking up fights with me during those times, for sparring with me a couple of times, how fast time flew. and now im the only one left.

got to go now. i wanna start playing the irritating sims again. and build a mansion bigger than those at 6th avenue. it sucks to have a dream house being built in a laptop only and to have electronic figurines live in it and not you.

i want to live in a mansion with lots of passion with me and my bf. me and my bf.

it is all about sex, ain't it?

2007-04-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

What do humans do after getting some? Ciggies are the first to be grabbed. TV switched on, or if it's on already, turn up the volume. And then there's a line which goes like - sex, hot gf and soccer, what more could a man asks for?

But that didn't happen to hamsters. The male will just start to run the wheel again, prolly thinking to himself, aaahh yes im a man! a mannnnnnnnnnn! But before the run starts, he will lie flat on his stomach, his four legs widely stretched out to respective sides, prolly thinking ooooohh boy. that was the bomb lah!

My qiu qiu actually got better. After she was diagnosed with a "womb infection" by some vet at eastpoint. And after seeing how much blood she lost. I almost cried at the clinic ok. Mummy was alone at the clinic. Daddy had some errands to do. haha. But anyways, yea. Both miu miu and qiu qiu (her clinic name is prada btw) are doing fine now thanks for asking. She's doing fine now i guess she doesn't need the vitamin and ointment anymore. But i think i better stick to the vitamins. Miu miu is now killing me with the wheeling sound. gedang gedung gedang gedung! And prada tengah rilek one corner. I think sooner or later prada gonna give birth to lots of hammies. Sapa nak angkat tangan?! And people say my hammies are this breed what they call - the black bear. But i reckon they are campbell's russian black dwarfs. Oh well. whatever their breed is. whoever their parents might be. they are just soooooooper duuuuuuper cute. and thanks honey for these cute little dwarfs as our anniversary present. i promish to tickle their tummy like how i tickle yours ok.

Brother getting married this weekend. jittery jittery bugs.

Aypah getting engaged this weekend too. JITTERY JITTERY BUGS!

And someone taught me not to waste money on hantaran. Because all that not wajib. So, ustadz mana ni? Go figure! (hint hint: eh, he loves to fart)

Oh no. there goes my paul smith!

ahbweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i don't like you. at all.

2007-03-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

i have never believed in pms-ing. and i didn't think i actually pms-ed the other day.

i realised i am quite an angry lady. lately, the littlest things tick me off effortlessly. n i miss #01-21. so much. especially my own bedroom. i didn't have any fancy furnitures or home decor back then in my room. it was just my built-in wardrobe, my queen size bed, my radio and that space where i carry out my prayers or just to read our holy Qur'an whenever i think i fuck up in some point of my life.

french class was a blast. but i hate the part when he grills each of us. i never like participation. unless its voluntarily.

could someone give me a plush Cheshire cat or Aristocat Marie Cat toy? i think that will somehow lighten me up a wee bit. or maybe a hamster?

someone, pls just give me a good cheesecake. with caramel frap, venti pls.

hardisk

2007-03-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

today is sunday. thank god for aydah's hardishh i get to steal whatever videos and overdue photos.

and then i saw myself with colourful bird nest hairstyles. eeu!

i soooooooo loveeeeee my long black hair now. well not really black lah. thanks to swimming, it gains some natural highlights. hahaha. but better natural than one splotch of colour here n there. toni n guy is yesterday's news.

last night. full force. newton where we pigged out seafood sponsored by the birthday girl. karaoke. sang for 4 friggin hours. sang our national anthems = bohemian rhapsody, dealova, enggan and many many more. and mana2 kita pergi, di situlah jugak ada si ditu eh! irritating betul. aniwes, all of us agree to one fact, we can't believe dian is the eldest among the girls. then we saw her ah ah aaahhhhh when she got that coach pink thing as her pressie. kakakaka. dian cacat. classic siak.

and girls, don't you think it is time for us to act like our age? let us be prim n proper. cover our mouth when we laugh. put on high heels to starbucks or simpang. put on 5 inches of make-up whenever wherever.

aiyoh. what a disaster. hell no way siol.

end of march is coming. pls o pls elyo pls clinch that damn project. bkoz i have this feeling, property executive is so blardy fun.

apparently......

2007-03-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

hah so as i had thought. the mofos had fun reading. they even have their own definitions of the words i used in the entries. could i just be the next xiaoxue? or siaowpentan? or whatever her name is. should i now start posting nude pictures of myself? and let the world talk about me me me and me. then i'll get paid. hahahahaaaaa. dah tebiat ke?

but sometimes i feel that i don't know you anymore.

i need a remedy. quick.

oh damn

2007-03-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

was myspacing and friendstering. and the reality hit me.

ouh dammit i aint cool anymore.

HAHAHAHAHA.

kawan-kawan, dah sembahyang maghrib ke belum?

notty eh!

he farts good

2007-03-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

As he leaned over me, he gazed deeply into my eyes. Studying my face. As if trying to remember the position of my every pores. His eyes clearer than ever. His lips twitched a little as if about to mutter his thoughts out loud. Then he thought nah better not. And I insisted on telling me his mind. And he did.

But with a little spew of air coming out of his arse. tuuuuutttt...

I'm telling you. My bf farts good.

sigh....my bf!

splish splash my ass

2007-03-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

eh u know what tak?

i need more brickbats.

the more brickbats i received (with not much of an open arms anyway), the more discipline i tend to swim.

then im back to skinny. skinny minny.

but brickbats also equals to heart pain. for what?

kanasai.

tak nak skinny ah.

kanasai.

Just shut up

2007-03-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

I shall now just keep my big mouth shut and not share my apparently dumb, stupid and a lil tad too sensitive thots, with anyone, anymore.

Not even you.

carrot cake wherefore art thou??

2007-03-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

im having this ridiculuos craving for carrot cake and prata aiskrim now. urghhhhhhh. but im so layzee to go food hunting.

so, are you having the time of ur life reading iizel?

enjoy while it lasts ok?

and the jb on friday midnite all the way to yesterday was like woww. wow bkoz of the company and kenny rogers especially!

and im missing my plumpy honey already.

ok lah. penat nak blog. bye lah.

dear sucker

2007-03-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

Dear Idiot,

it seems that it creates lots of delightful tingling teehee kinda feelings for you, when you go around asking people to have fun reading my previous online journal. small things like that could make u go hahahaha. oh boy how easy it is for your parents to bring u up since u love n enjoy little small things like that. how easy for you to achieve the sense of accomplishment. but how large ur phonebook and contacts are? could u reach the whole of singapore by just thru that website? so im a bitch? sheesh thanks [at least i did not self-proclaim i was one :)] would it make u the happiest idiot in the world if i help u spread it around? i shall just.

Sincerely,
your one and only motherfucker

so what did i tell ya? i love the eff word sooo much that i dont mind self-proclaiming it to my worthy self. apparently, ppl have been bitching about me and hey! i dont mind at all lah. seriously! like what dian told me, no wonder rezeki aku murah. sebab ramai yg mengata pasal aku. soooooooooo, keep on bitching abt me pls oh pls. i wont sue i promise.

and wayyyy before blogger dot com, i vented out my angsts n whatevernot at (drum rolls pls) iizel. so from the mofo here, happy reading! enjoy while it lasts. bkoz i almost forgotten i use to have it once. i will soon read over my previous life stories. n then it is time to close the forgotten book.

and ouh did u know? that by just reading my blog makes u another mofo too. hahaha.

just a bitch not yet a whore

2007-03-12T16:15:00.000+08:00

self-proclaimed bitches are just people turning into imbecile whores who don't care about anything or anyone but for their own benefits and gains (when their next prey comes) and they deserve nothing but to be banished mercilessly. foolish bitches.

and no one. NO ONE is comparable to my bf. my bf has standards. he has qualities. and he knows how, when and why to rock me nicely n well. (oh grow up already!)

will b meeting yanyan in 45 mins n i am feeling sooooooooooooo l-a-y-z-e-e.

i think i'll just jot down what i have just deleted, in my private diary. i mean ok maybe they do deserve to know what i've got to say here but then again, they dont play a much important role in my life with little significance at all so i would rather write little things like this in my diary n im now painting little doodles in my head to draw them in my diary but the best thing about this is, the things i wanna write about will slip away from my mind and then i wont remember what to write at all. then i'll just forget it. and that's how small you are in my life. you seem even smaller after knowing the foolish things you did. just what the hell are you trying to proof?

i really think ur so much more mindless than britney spears.

mak kata....

2007-03-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Was doing some teamwork with mummy last weekend. Bro getting married in a few weeks time and so we already started preparing the berkat thingy n stuffs. and then, just bkoz we were doing the berkat thingy and everyone is in the mood for the coming big bash, dorang sumer confront aku lah! bila kau punya turn? hey. crazy ke? lek ah... tunggu promotion dulu (which is very soon i swear im smelling it coming). tunggu gaji naik sampai beribu-ribu dulu. hahahaha...aiyoh. apalah mereka ini!

and the date unfortunately crashes with aypah's engagement day. nvm. i promish i cabut to ur place sekejap ok! kononnya nak hantar cupcake kau lah gitu kan...konon ajer. pas tu mana tahu kita can go "kedai" skejap or wattt?

and mummy cakap. nak cari jodoh, tak lawar tak apa. asalkan hati baik, niat suci dan penting sekali, boleh jadi imam keluarga. bingo! found him! n he is lawar ok. who say he's ugly, aku bunuh korang.

see! it doesnt matter if you have the looks of miller or the body of some yummy idiots, if you don't know how to give your lady the attention she's craving for (trust me, although we rarely ask for it, it doesn't mean we won't appreciate you for initiating it!), then you might as well go rainbow. good looking boys. either they have too many fuck buddies. or they are gays. or they think they look too much better than their dates. or they are super boring! or they are just simply idiots. i've seen too many eye candies before. tapi sayang, very the brainless lah. omg. was i being very judgemental? ouh maaf! tak sengaja. but anyhows, if the shoe fits, wear it.

and so, there's another soccer match this sunday huh? coolness. and aypah, u vivo-ing this weekend? urgh. actually kan, budget i tak lari. cuma i takut pergi sana! i suddenly have phobia for malls. well actually, the phobia only applies to my bank account ah. swipe picit swipe picit swipe picit! argh tidakkkkkkkkkk! so cannot promish first lor. i have too many series and movies to catch up nowadays. maybe i'll just be another mannequin by my desktop with grey's anatomy season 3 and prison break season 2. and heroes rule! go watch episode 18 already!

and i think peter petrelli is my latest hero. bkoz he looks a lil' like jason mraz. and jason mraz = farid. and that's hot!

SICC 2

2007-03-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

Dear Almighty, i really really hope you could answer my prayers.

Pls pls pls let elyo clinch that new project at SICC 2.

Because i like the sound of property executive.

:)

love love!

2007-02-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

my bf is really the female me i tell you.
he worries easily. hehehe...and him getting worried like that just reminded me how much he loves me. thank you for that reminder ok!

and in about another hour time, another february baby is will be turning 2*! happy birthday in advance sayang! and im sure hot stuff like you will age really well. no doubt.

eh tell u what. tmrw. once you're in ur office. photocopy your palms. both of them. make sure the lines are visible enough. keep those copies safely. and then maybe, on annual basis or even once every two years, compare those copies with your existing palm lines. notice any difference? :)

and im still contemplating. should i or should i not get that RED HOT FLIP hellomoto?
im flipping myself thinking about it. this is what u call the opportunity costs. either that french class. or that RED HOT FLIP hellomoto. i might as well get both eh? crazee? hahaha.

feeling hot hot hot!

im going back to my grey's anatomy now. bye lah.

i know u know i know

2007-02-25T15:44:00.000+08:00

i wish mr bennet's bodyguard cum good friend, whatever his name is could take a part of my memory away from me.

because it's the truth that i dont wanna know.

i wish it's possible to know but thats impossible bkoz i aint a claire bennet.

if i'm a claire bennet, i would die after knowing and then be back up n kicking again and contented that i knew how it's like to hurt till you die.

and then i would ask that guy to erase all the catastrophe away. only the catastrophe and nothing else...

i wonder if the rest of virgos think too much like moi.

i cant help it. but i really wish that guy exists after all.

maaf

2007-02-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

gomenasai.

and thank you.

who is my hero? hiro hero?

2007-02-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

eh.

i want to be a party girl back like last time can anot?

i want to live recklessly again.

take some stuffs and start being a bulimic again.

and then i'll always be in the coolest of the moolest scenes and happenings in town.

gerek dok.

ptuii! see. this is how bored i am. im waiting for my heroes episode 14 to finish up buffering and this is what i wrote. am done friendster-hopping...speaking of which, an old gf just sent me a smile! can't believe she found me. and now she's flying mlying. then she asks me why are you not flying. then i told her big deal it is just the same as waitressing except ur serving high up in the air and that makes u a little bit high class and she larfed and then i confessed to her i would love to but my height forbids me lah balls and she larfed even more. bitch! malu ok saya ini budak pendek. and i told her my next target in the career line and then she's like fuyoooo amoy! mesti yakin can tau! and then im like iyelah tu achi.....but am so glad she found me lah.

and no lah. i wouldnt wanna live recklessly anymore. that was jessica in nikki talking. i dont wanna rock n roll anymore. bosan sey.

but i still want that paul smith bag ive been yearning for 2 years now.

and that chanel sneakers ive been desiring, for 4 years now.

and i need to get out of elyo! unhealthy! dirty! so many anjings! jijik!

it is now one-o five in the freaking morning and im not asleep yet. i wish i could but i cant sleep lah. so many things on my mind. sometimes i scare myself like shit siol why must i think of all sorta stoopid unsignificant things. but i guess all that to make me more astute. but do u know that high pitch verbal noise is like a stinging brickbat to me. ok that was a statement not a question. i actually bruise that easily but i forgive easily too.

but me. elya. me. i am not one who forgets easily. especially a brickbat.

bleargh

2007-02-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

im smelling something stale.

somethings missing.

it's no more glittery.

that period. it is? or it is not?

i wish to pull myself out of this denial.

reality check. elya.

world war

2007-02-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

i feel like there's a war coming up soon. yes, despite the fact that there are many happenings in the world which are also the signs like duhh that the world is ending. but this world i'm talking about is different. this world which has soil as us yours truly, has rain as our downs, has summer seasons as our ups, has heart predators as those idiots we've met but most importantly has this subtle but powerful magnetic ozone layers holding us together throughout the years. but sadly, the layers are thinning out fast. i have no fucking idea why but must be the bad unseen radiations thats causing all these. and it is just so FUCKING SAD.

Farid means the world to me.
And so do them.

Au revoir.

ahem

2007-02-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

i heardddddd.......

jeng

jeng

jengggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

shoowap!

i found it!

2007-02-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

guess what i found while youtubing??? thank u youtube! dah lama aku cari benda ni. yayyyyy!!!

a bittersweet weekend

2007-02-11T16:23:00.000+08:00

Last night i tried to be a cameron diaz + kirsten dunst. I thought i was gonna fail. I thought i cudnt pull it thru. I almost failed when it was only one third of the night. But then i thought about him. I thought about that special her having her special night last night. And BFF helped me pulled it thru. And i didnt have the heart to do what i was very capable of doing. What i was best at doing. I love to walk away from icky situations. But i stayed throughout the night. Until now, i left myself wondering, how the fricking hell did i manage to be so fake? :) Trust me. It was a chore to be fake when things around you are killing you inside. It was so hard to concentrate to keep on smiling for the sake of...well, for the his sake actually. I wouldn't wanna lose this simple battle.

Anyways, congrats to the newly weds. Benoit & Irelinda. You both were the most gorgeous couple in Hilton last night. I wish you both well in this new journey you guys made it look so easy to pull thru. Your new hopes and dreams, I'll pray for your success and may you both have a blissful life together.

And so, some boy received a nice weapon after the stroke of midnight last night. When he thought that i forgot to bring them along. Watching his face was priceless lah. And he grown so fat last night bkoz i bought him 2 cakes. And he's old already. But wei! a number is only a number. He still rocks me well. He doesnt have any athritis yet. And he's not balding!

And he played with his latest weapon today. Yes i know he aint some Giggs or Gerrard but hey! He's my Crouch lah ok! hahaha.

To my baby tua, happy 17th birthday. No, that wasnt a typo error. It was just an attempt to make him feel younger. Wow! haha. I love you honey sayang intan bucuk. Tua or not tua. My love for you won't ever age. I heart you.

Two more February babies to go!

i love school

2007-02-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

I just received an advancement letter from MDIS.

I would love to take Bachelor of Science (Hons) in Biz & Marketing.

I love i love i love. i love everything and anything that will generate revenue. kaching kaching! i love the capitals and equities. i love shares and debentures. i would love to get my own office in one of the big 5 in singapore. i would love to put on gucci pumps and prada suits to the office instead of my current t-shirt and jeans now. post ajer secretary. tapi siapa dress up pi cargo complex, dia giler. saya nak jadi power-girl in the CBD area. not just some secretary for life.

as i said earlier, i love money. but now im hating them. i hate them bkoz of my insufficient funds to further my studies. i hate internet banking bkoz i've used up a few grands of my life savings. i love and hate interest rates. i hate money bkoz someone is still owing loads of grands but she seem to be taking her own sweet fucking time to pay me back them money. and with that amount fully paid to me, i could fucking take my fucking degree! hell! i'm still able to graduate in fucking university of wales!

i cried naturally when daddy used to beat me up. i cried like i wanna die when my heart breaks. i cried endlessly when my hamster and cats died.

but now. the desire to clinch that piece of paper is killing me. whoever of u out there got fucking SPONSORED for your studies, you are fucking spoilt brats. i wish to fucking slaughter you all.

im just jealous. boo hoo.

Eternal Embrace

2007-02-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

I just have to share you strangers / friends / enemies this hot discovery.

Archaeologists in Italy have discovered a couple buried 5,000 to 6,000 years ago, hugging each other.

"It's an extraordinary case," said Elena Menotti, who led the team on their dig near the northern city of Mantova.

"There has not been a double burial found in the Neolithic period, much less two people hugging -- and they really are hugging."

Menotti said she believed the two, almost certainly a man and a woman although that needs to be confirmed, died young because their teeth were mostly intact and not worn down.

"I must say that when we discovered it, we all became very excited. I've been doing this job for 25 years. I've done digs at Pompeii, all the famous sites," she told Reuters.

"But I've never been so moved because this is the discovery of something special."

A laboratory will now try to determine the couple's age at the time of death and how long they had been buried.

- ROME (Reuters)

Is dat hot or sweet or sweet hotness?

Maybe romeo and juliet existed after all. Maybe Shakespeare wrote the play based on true life accounts or at least true facts. Aaaahh...coolness.

What was the cause? What were their last thoughts? Was there any suffering? Did they die together because their love was really tight like that? Or were they in that position because of obligations? Was there any sincerity? Why did they die like that?? Why did they have to be sooo super sweet even after 5000 years???

Whatever the laboratory might find, i just think those skeletons are pure sweetness. Till death they parted.

And that's the hottest thing.

lonely indulgence but its ok

2007-02-03T11:21:00.000+08:00

dia tidak cantik makkk
dia tidak jelik makkk
yang sedang-sedang sajaaaa
yang pentinggggg
dia setiaaa

heeee....currently listening to Warna and then that old dangdut song by wan was aired and i was thinking wow wan confirm dah tua bkoz dat song is very the primary school era.

do u know...

that i'll be doing my shopping alone today. yes. without bf nagging at me for going in and out of high-end boutiques. without him getting rimas seeing me rimas with big no-eyes crowd. yes arrrrrrrr. im going shopping for linda's wedding next week. so many to try on. with so little time. maybe i should stop by some ice-cream joints like haagen dazs and indulge in their sinful fondue. maybe i should drop by marina square for awhile and see true religion's latest collection. maybe that few pairs of aldo. eh shit. vivo got dior or not? i wanna buy some accessories since i lost one of my dior earrings during zoukout last year. now im only left with one side. how like that?

eh so fun.

and aydah, confirm lah im gonna get that ring. so cheap!!!

and aydah, pls eh. pls dont forget eh. pls dont forget to invite me should there be anymore future company chalets. last night was totally gerek dot com. dian, pls try to psycho ur bf harder to play soccer tmrw. and then we become their virgin cheerleaders. too woow too woow!

if anyone whoever you are bump into me wherever i'll be at later, pls tegur ok. i could use a 2-mins quick chat since i'll be going mute for the day. need to exercise my mouth lah. erm ok.

and i totally cant wait for the 2nd leg tmrw!

Singapura! Maju jaya!

eh tertinggal

2007-01-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

eh wait.
before i sleep...i would like to say...i miss my girliessssss!!!
can't wait for another soccer-watching this weekend...'live' some more!
with the bff and bf ok. dats hot.

and yaya is getting engaged this weekend! yayyyy! alhamdulillah...settle down jugak kau eh. bagus bagus. love u gf.

and i also miss this bacin girl here. ok i know i look very the buruk but i love being kissed by her. but of course, no one beats Farid ok. :)

dats hot lor.

and this is my cat prince shining quiksilver. this is my oasis. this is my serenity.

pardon my corny-ness but he's always there to catch me when i fall.

but i didnt get to catch him when he fell into the drain at johor 3 months ago. and his leg bleeded quite badly ok. kesian bf aku.

love love.

lagi sekali

2007-01-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

im beginning to be sick from playing too much puzzle bobble at work. i wonder whats happening now. sometimes i asked myself if i was being non-chalant or complacent about my job qualities. and then i would look around my desk, office, files, trying to recall if i've missed out anything. i would look through the files to see any post-it notes i might have overlooked. but then, there's really nothing left to do. and then i would go to t5 to help the other lady. who by the way apparently hasnt updated her billing and overtime records since September 2006. im trying very hard here not to be judgemental bkoz that is one of my new year's resolution. haha. but seriously, one thing i cannot tolerate is slowness. wei i admit i could be such a sotong at times....ok ok maybe a lil bit more than at times but that is different from efficiency. ahhh yes the right word. i cannot tahan people who has little efficiency lahhhhhh. tahu buat kerja. tapi lembab. dah tahu lembab, tak ada initiative nak stay back. dulu aku slalu stay back ok. lagi2 bila aku jaga T1 sampai T6 sorang2. boleh jadi giler. tapi gerek. i wont complain. i would just make my 10 mins walk to aft5 and update whatever i could. i wont complain bkoz i dont think i could. i rather not. i would rather stay away from these office politics. very the unhealthy lah.

kerja kat male environment pun blambak politics oi. dah macam girl2. very the kepo. bilang dorang kalau nak kepo, pi duduk pat kaypoh road ah ok.

anyways, i've started to update and revamp my resume. just in case lah.

as much as i love elyo...i would also love to hate elyo. bkoz from what i see, there aint many career advancements for me. and i dun wanna be the puzzle bobble champion for life. i need to break away. make some changes. take on a further flight. and then go for the kill. i might have a 2yr plan set out. but its just a plan. and i wish not to go further bkoz it might be a jinx. :)

sigh......

so much for elyaelyo.

im sure gonna miss elya@elyosea.com.sg soon.

my beautiful happening

2007-01-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

nowadays, i thank God bkoz i could see those beautiful happenings on his face bit by bit as the days passed by. and its crazy bkoz i would love to live by just that. no need the oxygen. no need the water. no need the solid foods. just him i need to pull me through whatever hurdles come what may. yea its dat crazy. but no i aint psychotic. am just in love. like totally, really!

and his nieces and nephews pun! pandai draw rocket, pandai buat magic and they are soooo painfully cute i tell u they can get away with the biggest crimes CSI had ever investigated. and i simply adore them. and i would be more than glad to see these little tikes grow up. and then they'll remember me as the aunty china masuk islam. hahaha. and i soooo love his sisters and aunties i swear i could hang out at kedai kopi with them.

i am proud of him bkoz he stayed strong like he's supposed to yesterday.
i am proud to be with him and a part of the beautiful family, inside and out.

love love.

it is a man's world

2007-01-21T18:08:00.000+08:00

love's mummy is coming home tmrw. annual leave? checked and taken.

the weekend = bf, battle box, we were in that very room where the british decided to surrender to the jepuns, travelled back in time, starbucks, non-stop spankings, *smack*, to woow to woow!, goalllll!, liverpool won, "chut" scored his penalty goal in the advertisements, seafood platter at 70mins, spaghetti after 40mins, rose wine, heinekens, coke, i almost lost it when i found rum in my supposedly VIRGIN pina colada, ugly chicken puff, chipolate chicken roll, bf teaching basic theory and ended the day with tabboo at ecp.

and i miss my maple story. i want to play it nowwwwwwwwww!

and im not looking forward to June. bkoz dats when the govt decides to steal him away. baby, grow old faster can? so no need to go for anymore reservist. boo hoo.

eh im so damn tired lah.

but still manage to organize, upload and convert some handfuls of frames from bmp to jpeg format.

so u wanna know how blissful my life has been? especially since 300806?
view my sweet frames here.

i'll be praying for her strength. for her aura. for her everything to be fine since she's coming home alone. insyaAllah.

bila eh

2007-01-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

ever since yesterday, ever since my empty promise to blogger to upload muse's vids for all of u to see and loathe me further, i just couldn't help it!

last night i was playing maple story.

and today. i just couldn't be bothered especially after tuitioning my nephew's maths. i tell u. i felt like going in for the kill lah. but his aunty has loads of patience. u wait one day i explode all of u die. eh. broken betul.

anyways, life is definitely sweet.

bkoz my division head just gave me an original pierre cardin classic metal pen. with casing some more!
and i didn't realize i am actually a part of Elyo's union members until recently. despite the fact that im only under contract. the only contract staff who is currently a member of the union actually. :) :) :) eksen eh!

and i'm in the organizing committee for Elyo's d&d this yr. heng ah this year got committee. eh really lah. organizing an event alone (or maybe ur boss helps u a little here n there) for sooo many people could just drive you crazy. must ask for quotations like hell. must source here n there. but all in the name of job. all in the name of secretary. i love i love i love.

but i aint gonna stay this position forever lor.

bkoz this past few days i actually had the time to play puzzle bobble at my freaking desktop. yes it was that scary to know that i currently have nada work. zero. nil. kosong. and it's no fun bkoz there wasnt anything to do.

and i pity my bf manja. everyday he has to go on sites. makin cheleng bf aku.

takpe takpe. cheleng no cheleng. i still love him all the same.

yes. whatever lah idiots. call me love sick. pathetic or whatever ok. im just really really really praying for this.......ok stop bkoz i wouldnt wanna jinx it.

enuff of jinxes already.

omigod.

here it is again.

another random entry.

n dont you think nanotechnology is just beautiful? what about cloning? or automated parking system?

would you like to be nano-ed?

and people please! RESERVE! bkoz extinction is forever.

and i regretted throwing tantrums when i got home just now.

bkoz i saw a used knife still lying on the kitchen table. nephew taking time to eat his dinner so he'll have lesser study time with me. n i found a stack of my archies sprawling on the floor. WTF?

don't scold me can. im a proud virgo. a proud perfectionist. i like to do things all the way till it gets finished. and i cant stand sights like mentioned above. i threw the knife into the sink. screamed at my nephew for being complacent bkoz he's siting for his damned PSLE this year. chucked back my archies where it initially belongs to. n concurrently i was yakketting dunno what shit ah. yes i know it's still too early to stress that kid. but risk is one factor i would love to burn. i am a risk taker....hmmm...quite ah. but i wont risk for this kid. he's studying algebra already lah! nasib baik aku pandai buat maths.

sigh.......

amidst all these little hurricanes, i don't know how he did that but he suddenly appeared like that. n thinking of him actually soothes me...he is like my mint chocolate. like my 7up in chocolate milk. like my ayam lemak chilli padi. so sweet. so sedap. so menyamankan. and at times, so hawt!

and im proud of him for being who he is today. sure, people say the past experiences always mould an individual. but im proud of myself also for anchoring his heart. for being such a hotness he couldn't resist. and im proud of him on how he tries to relate things i dun understand to me. im proud of him being himself wholly silly romantically with me.

and after a long time....i think my parents are proud of me.

ok lah. besok kita punya new year. slamat tahun baru kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat.

kepada yang non-chalant tentang tahun baru kita, korang boleh jadi musibat.

omg dat is soo not funny lor. ok im sorry. im sorry i actually mean it.

muse rocks ok

2007-01-17T11:54:00.000+08:00

i can't wait to get home to blog.
so here i am now in my office still feeling damn lethargic from last night's madness.

I WAS AT THAT MUSE GIG LARRRRR!!!

hahahahaha.
for $50 only. yes i love to gloat. gloat gloat gloat like a goat. waaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha!

patience my friend, is indeed the greatest virtue.

nevertheless, i would like to thank my best friend, dian farhana for psychoing me to go. despite the fact that ive used two grand from my savings already. but she paid $110 though. waaaaaaaaaaaaahahahaha. n thank you to my close friends whom i still hold dearly close to moi heart for being starkarats - and that saved moi savings further! and thank you mr lifetime who encouraged me to go and paid for my tickets! weeehaaaaaaaaaa.

so pls wait patiently for the videos. those who cried last night bkoz you wish you were there. those who almost hang themselves because they missed watching that sexy Matt on stage LIVE. those videos are for you. so, loathe me.

shall update further when i got home later. the stack of invoices to be settled on my table now are about to kill me. then i have to do the pening financial reconciliation. but anyhows, im loving my job.

love love!

I would die for you

2007-01-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

I dedicate this gerek song to my lifetime of course.

he owns it

2007-01-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to start this entry. perhaps i do know. but where do i start? should i start with the fact on how much i love to see him smile. how much i adore his giggles. and the way the skin around his eyes area cringe so hard when he's having a big laugh. last night i saw all that on him.

but those beautiful things ended abruptly when he heard the news today.

the news that tore him apart into pieces.
the news that hurt him so much it's close to suicidal.
and hearing his quivering voice on the phone just now made my brains dead for awhile.
i went out makeup-less. it was just a grab and go moment for me. i couldn't think properly for all i know is he needs my presence. i forgot to wear the proper attire for a solemn gathering. yes ok i was stupid. so i had to borrow bibik's tudung just now. i donated a few of surah yassin for his daddy. but i think that ain't enough. i think i'll just pray some more after this.

i felt totally useless seeing tearful eyes just now.
i felt helpless seeing others' grievances.

his daddy passed away at Mekah today. God definitely loves him so much more alhamdullilah insyaAllah.

and i know it will be a long time from now till i see those beautiful happenings on his face like last night again. don't weep honey, for your loss. try to smile with the fact that your dad is now in the most beautiful place filled with purity and i'm sure he's happier there insyaAllah. because your daddy deserves to be in that place. a place that couldn't be compared to the 7 wonders of the world. only He knows.....

i will be the pillars for you to hold onto now during your weakest moments.

i love you, Farid.

Haji Salihoddin Bin Ahmad Rubai, semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat insyaAllah...

i'll keep ur heart in mine. tightly.

2007-01-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

Ok, so i am in fact the last one to update after 2006 besides my sayang. that makes him in the 2nd place. eh wait. but he has always been in the first place all along. heh.

Stepping into 2007 with my darlings, my sayang and my darlings' sayangs couldn't have been better. First, it was the dinner at Ben's place and the mash potato pun. sedap nyah! untung cik linda kita tu. tak lama lagi dah jadi mrs ben. heeee sronok! and then off to east coast to meet the bff and partners in crime. yea yea. who needs a club with loud music to party the NYE away with a bang? just give us a deck of pokers, ferrero rochers, 2 mats, a comforter (stolen by ms dian) and of course the booze to go along with. and we'll be more than a happy bunch. and to watch the boys pee at the same time in a straight line is just very........cute lar. and now they're so addicted to gambling i tell you they have the potential of being the casino regulars. if casino allows 10cent to start with ar. heheheehe.

And ahtam is too busy to entertain me lately. bluewk. only get to see him when i decided to go around that area. like duhh. that area is his second home already. but i miss eating nasi goreng sambal belachan at bencoolen with him. and then he will start sweating like a piggy. so funny.

And today. no wonder it rained. bkoz of that sad news. it is too sad bkoz very geram. very geram bkoz the location is very far and it makes my baby n i feel helpless, restless and agitated always wondering about his condition, what's going to happen next and so on...i'll keep ur heart in mine and i promise to seal it tightly. so no bad air could enter. so no termites could hurt it. so no other matters of life could annihilate it. whatever happens, you know i'll be there. i'll pray for ur daddy's health sayang. for now, try to be strong like you always are. He will look after ur daddy i know since the location is already at His house. Thus, insyaAllah ur daddy will do just fine and he'll be back home in 2-3 weeks time. I feel the uneasiness in you dear but i really wish i could do more than just comforting you.

I love you, Md. Farid.....
Really.

it feels like

2006-12-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

ouh.
have i told you what it feels like.
it feels like love.
it feels like a lifetime of serendipity.

thank you honey.

sayang dia

2006-12-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

the things that are still running on my mind (besides mr. lifetime) are fixed costs and WACC and everything accounting. i am supposed to start studying for my ultimate last paper but decided a few hours of tv and laptop wont hurt. ouhhh boy. mr. lifetime sure gonna nag at me. but im not complaining. bkoz he loves me. n dats hot.

and the influence of alcohol...hmm...yes i've put myself clear before but that was in my previous blog. the one with dark pasts and many broken dreams. but anyhows, after the party with mr. lifetime, his best friend and her hubby-to-be, we witnessed a real 'live' beng fight. yah the one with kanina chau chi bai and lan chiao being aired at one fullerton. thing is. the challenger is someone not their own size. or rather, age. the victim is one of the cabbie driver lar. and these 2 bengs really know how to fight like men. but they also know how to run for cover like kids after doing their shit. and the driver was moaning until he went quiet. seeing something like that makes me sick. like what da eff? ur drunk. cab driver might have trigerred something. ur drunkardly mad and decide to knock him off? and fuckiest thing is, no one help the driver lar. not until the fight was over. everyone was just standing there. perhaps they were too busy jotting down his plate number. or they were just plain stupid fucks.

i tell you. if i keep on typing fuck here, blogger's gonna ban me. but it's such a beautiful word.

CSI rocks my world.

and yes. the kinda overdue pictures. did u drown while waiting?

don't try to play tai-tee or heart attack in choo choo train.

choo choo train very noisy but we likeeeee

i cinta everyone in here. kopet or not.

that is called rilek one corner the pengantin style

strictly no boutique shopping for us that day

we took the 70cents bus to klcc

our doinky nicest warmest funniest lamest loveliest boys

we sayang each other many2 although we may look like retards at times

no smoking? what?! but we left our IDs at the apartment ms door BITCH! pfft.

we gained 10kg immediately.

Aypah's part-time bf, Puspawan

the kakakakaka night

Genting!!! yayyyy!

ok. and then my lumic decided to die on me. so the rest of the pics are still with dada n yanyan. upload cepat!!!!

ok!

got to study some theory shits.

c ya. dont wanna be ya.

i can't wait

2006-12-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

aloha sg.
sorry but i can't wait to share my super sweet worthwhile (with a pinch of bitterness for the group) weekend madness with the loves.
it is definitely what chacha calls it 'what a trip!'
thousands of frames (super kewlness, like literally lor) to be uploaded.
so hold your breath i promise i wont drown you.
and i miss genting already.
the fact that it was so damn foggy and freaking cold that they don't need any aircon technicians around.
heeeeeeeeeeeee.
ok it's 2 already.
and i need to snore now.
a happy snore yayyy!

and my bf got me this gorgeous T & Co ring!
ah so many things.
but this snore sensation is overwhelming.
cannot tahan liaow.

au revoir!

Ciara, you rock!

2006-12-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

but on another note, i feel better after watching this clip. it explains what i feel inside. it dances my thoughts out. and i'm smiling now. despite the fact that there's another new problem. i wish to kill my daddy's visitors Saw the movie style. they suck. MLM fucking suck. as an amature marketeer, let me tell you something. don't waste your moolah on un-commercialised stoopid things aka medicines and yada yada. you want medicines, you go visit your doctor. you want vitamins, go visit the pharmacy. you want a fug, go fug yourself.

but for now, watch this clip. and it will take all your worries and doubts away. if it doesn't, then go fug yourself.

Promise
By Ciara
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i ain't ***

2006-12-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

i ain't that
i ain't ***
like that kinda thing
don't fashionise me
don't gear me up
i ain't that
i ain't ***
i may be some of this and some of that
but i do not want to be like ***
im classier
im sorry but i see further in life
i feel the need to accomplish so much
and that definitely ain't ***
don't mistook my strength as an ego
bkoz i ain't like ***
don't tell me this
don't tell me that
bkoz i ain't ***
but i haven't had much of a choice
to talk my stupid thoughts out
so i decided to blog about it
and it's wearing me out
but anyhows,
im still holding on tight to that life knife behind my back.
you know.
for emergency purpose.
just in case.
so i could just kill and run away.
it definitely hurts lesser that way.

so don't ask me what this is all about. i just got back from jb after looking for my twin bro's wedding stuffs and i got home at 6am from zoukout and im deadbeat. im wondering if it's ok to smoke in this thing im wearing now. bkoz tampines is infact the next geylang i reckon. soooooo many malays lar. and does anyone wants me to sing a birthday song for them? so i could try my luck and publish it on myspace crossing my fingers that p diddy or master p might bump into my profile hahahaha. then i'll be a singapore version of cassie. cassie terus. lassie adalah.

has anyone read cat n mouse in a haunted house before? cute giler lar.

and i found pics. year 2004 pics. i shall post them up real soon bkoz..............bkoz i just found them lah ok. and then i was wondering that i might be holding onto them sweet memories for a wee bit too long that i think it is time to let go. like frou frou said, there's a beauty in breakdown. so, i really don't know what to do. how do you define the letting go part? does it include deleting every pics in your comp or online albums or burning all the 4Rs u have? or it is just an emotional flow? i dont know. u tell me. my definition is obviously burning all the frames bastards i once had a thing with. but except for the good ones. the worthy ones. n they tell me i could keep their pictures. n then i thought to myself, i am indeed in a very serious relationship so will it be a risk if i decided to once in a while look thru the old albums remembering the times me and the ex-him once had and then that would make me feel guilty. i dont know. bkoz its like im thinking n smiling of another instead of my significant one so is that considered to be as "cheating" literally? if not, emotionally? ok ok. maybe the word is not cheating. but humans are all the same. one thought will lead to another thousand thoughts. and i dont know where im going with this...

dian, please ah. i still have dozens of bastard faces to burn. then we'll sing burn by usher while burning away the memories. and then perhaps i'll be happier and feel lighter. bkoz bastards frames in my cupboard is equivalent to me living with them. n it pulls me down.

another random dumb entry.
thanks for reading but u've just wasted your time.

new toy for new year

2006-12-09T14:51:00.000+08:00

and so, i have a new toy for a new year! yayy! thank you starhub for the voucher. now i can just cam whore anywhere and any style i want to. and the mmc that comes with it is huge lar. and i love it. n bf loves it. n bff love it bkoz of the video call from bf last night n bff get to see him being so blardy shy that they get to laugh at him. the power of 3G is sooo......yummm.....

and i got more than a C for financial management. anyone whos finances need to be managed?
pls call 1800-imbroke and an operator will assist you shortly.

and today is the zoukout day. i still havent decided what to wear. shall i go for a quick shopping spree later to use up my isetan vouchers? or shall i just make do with whatever i have and try that new recipe instead? fyi, today my mum cooked chilli crab! tralalalalala....nak sikit?

and i just found out that my new toy has a powderful bluetooth integrated thingy that i could play my tracks wirelessly to a stereo system. dats hot.

and i still dunno what to get for my bf's 20+ birthday pwessie. hahahaha. 20+ huh. dat actually made him somehow looked "young" on cyber. ok ok. im so gonna get it from him later for bitching about him. bring it on lar....tua! :)

tua tua pun, i still sayang wattttttt...

n im ecstatic about the kl genting trip next week! with the girlies and the bf. super complete lor. and alas, after so many donkey years, i will get to ride the choo choo train to kl. eeeeeeeeee!!! n yes. not to forget to bring the cards along. but unfortunately, epichah couldnt make it lor. n aydah said if he gets to follow, he confirm blanje alot of stuffs (read: booze n yada yada) n it's only his bonus! blanje orang macam menang lottery gitu! baik hati epichah eh. but too bad lah hor. n dats not hot.

and after all those fun n kakaka-ing, i will be facing with my last 2 papers too dead too soon. bleargh. maybe i should bring some notes to kl. pffttt.

ok now i want to hunt for some killer tracks n music clips.

then off to hunt the chilli crab in the kitchen.

sape2 yang ke zouk out, happy zouk outing!

penat giler

2006-12-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

weekend = penat + happening + colourful + kekek + dan tempat2 yg sewaktu dengan nye.

pics will be uploaded by aydah, nani, jun and dian. ermmm....aydah, have u taken jun's mmc card from her? otherwise, god knows how long she's gonna take uploading the pics. :p

n mummy's home! yayyyy!!!

and tmrw back to work. boooooooo!!!

and bf is having this family feast and i miss him already lar!!!

and finally, cha n helmie halal liaow. i bet they eventually got "sleepy" once we left just now. wayyyyyyyy before their usual bedtime. harharhar very funny lar.

ok.

braindead.

bye.

Sorry Gabriel!

2006-12-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

REMIND ME NOT TO GO TO ANYMORE KEDAI GUNTING RAMBUT NYONYA.
I ASKED FOR A TRIM.
NOT A THIN, BITCHHHHHHHHH.
URGH.
NOW MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE A LIFELESS PUSSY.
WITH NOT MUCH VOLUME!
NO ONE CAN TOUCH MY HAIR VOLUME.
U COULD MEDDLE WITH THE LENGTH.
BUT NEVER THE VOLUME!
AND MY HAIR NOW LOOKS LIKE THE SOOOO NOWADAYS WHICH IS LIKE THE EEUUU!
I HATE IT I HATE IT I FUCKING HATE IT.
THATS IT.
FROM NOW ONWARDS, IT WILL ONLY BE GABRIEL, GABRIEL AND GABRIEL WHO WILL BE CUTTING MY HAIR. IF IT'S GONNA TAKE ME TO TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TO HOLLAND V, I FUCKING WILL!!!

BKOZ NO ONE TOUCHES WITH MY HAIR VOLUME!!!
NO ONEEEEE!!!!!!!

do you remember?

2006-11-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

Do you remember how (gorgeous) i looked on the night we met?

What an impromptu decision. Thank you Womad, for your expensive tickets otherwise I wouldn't have met my LOAL. And gatecrashing is so yesterday. Thank you ayDah n dian for suggesting john molina instead. And thanks ayDah for...oh well you know for what lah eh.

So, in less than half an hour the date will be officially over.

But not the story. And definitely with more chapters and frames to come.

Thank you Snoop Dog for that mofo song. That got his attention. hehz....

Thank you hotness. For everything.

And honey, who ever said that your eyebrows are wussies? Come on let me trim them nicely for you.

Happy 90+ days sweet love.

hold on

2006-11-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

class test went well alhamdullilah. just thought that i could have been more stingy and fair to myself. remind me not to pass my answers (which amazingly came out of my fingertips) around anymore. i feel sucky bkoz i just cant be stingy. that is not me. not in financial matters. not in anything. and worse, not even thank you. thanks eh. im only stingy when it comes to bf. where can share bf? kau dah giler. nak kena bunuh?

oh well. there goes my effort burning the midnight oil.

but i really cannot be stingy lar. i just cant see people in desperate moments although they themselves ask for it. sometimes boleh jadi macam budak bodoh. bkoz orang2 bodoh tak tahu appreciate. tapi nanti buat lagi. ah whatever lah. knowledge is queen. n i am the one with the knowledge. so korang kena panggil aku queen. lord save the queen lord save the queenie queen. pffft.

i feel sucky.

and no one's home for a fucking week.

and i thot im going to create a storm.

but smoking freely in the house it's just it. nothing else.

i guess i'll do some early preps for exams or something.

or read my archies over n over again.

or just mess up my bed n be lazy.

or talk to my cats.

or check out e-bay. or youtubing.

ah.

whatever.

baby snoring again

2006-11-26T17:20:00.000+08:00

my baby chumchumboom snoring again. eeeeeeeeeeeee so long lah his eyelashes.

anyways, just done getting a new template for him. the previous one so the small boy punya template now. his latest template is something evergreen. something that is quite the him. sorry honey, couldn't find a pink floyd template for you. after my papers i do for you ok.

and last night was fu to the yoooooooooo.

attendance was fully marked. except for one who didnt wanna end up lookng like an advertisement for us. hah his bad. but anyways, we actually stayed up till 5 in the fucking am to make the banner in a tiptop condition. we printed and cut out numbers of A4 size papers taped together into a nice curvy shape. and i sewed the beads and glued the kinky white feathers. nani did the photoshop. jun n aydah did the crowns for the queen n king of the night. and so we celebrated the so called hen-cock party at scarlet hotel. i missed my tetek. but there's only one tetek i knew left at breeze. and aydah, jun n i fetched amy n chacha and blind folded them from red dot building all the way back to the restaurant. that part klakar nak mampos. perut boleh piciak (pecah in manjen's slang). n chacha cried when we took off their blindfolds. n amy almost fell off the platform. hahahaha. aiyah. amy almost fell alot of times lah. after a round of drinks, we went momoing. n stayed at the live band room whose main singer looks like amy search and his voice is fu to the yoooo also. n he sang our song!!! dedicated to the halal-hubby-n-wife-in-a-week. they actually played journey's faithfully lar balls! and amy cried lor bkoz coincidentally that's his fav song too. and bf fa-reed is forever the sweetest thing. although he got a little irritated looking for the hotel initially. hehz. what a love. you could see the love electricity going on in the air last night.

to chacha, all the best honey, for your future, your new life and endless happiness. we are so fucking happy for you i swear we are all gonna cry on your wedding day. it seems like only yesterday we were chilling at tamp wif our norm bubble teas n ciggies session planning for your wedding activities. which mak andam? which tok kadi? which bridal services? i'm so glad that you're glad with the one for you now. promise to still meet up for bubble teas n ciggies ok? although u will be in punggol later ok? dat is so light years far but i have this feeling we'll make it forever.

ok now. going to have a ciggie and start cramping for tmrw's financial management class test which is gonna take up 20% of my assessment fuyoooooooooo.

i heart you, Farid.

i sayang you, BFF.

i miss you

2006-11-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

it still gives me all the warmth and smiles whenever i see this frame. taken 4 yrs ago. wow. damn was i hot or what. so skinny. and that top dian was wearing is my ck off shoulder top ok. and she broke the armpit part. bleargh. that girl always has tendencies to break things. ouh well. 4 yrs ago when i was all eager and always plunging forward without thinking the consequences. when i only wanted to go to clubs where there were little attendance from the mat but sadly, all malay guys are mat(s) lar. and all malay girls are minah(s). what we are the minah2 cool chill rilek one corner. and then this clubbing shits obviously affected my skool. and i was so reckless lar ok! used to always go against my parents pleas and cries and angst to make me a better person. and what do you know. at that age, baru nak naik lah kan....step tahu menahu segalanyer. but thank God i didn't reach to a point where i pack my things up and go. dat would be stoopid, ungrateful, naive and......more stoopids.

but anyhows, i miss that girl who hugs me in the picture. pompuan giler. sewel. pandai pulak tuh. dah pandai, athlete pulak tuh. im so jealous aydah get to play netball today bkoz it made me think of our first year in np together. frst yr must take PE mah. so we took netball. and beat the crap out of the masscomm team. they could definitely talk flowery flowery english but no stamina! hurhurhur. im in such a predicament right now. been so many occasions when i told myself i would call her and have coffee or chill at chjimes like how we used to but things keep on twisting ar. now my stoopid handphone is spoilt. like totally. nak tengok contacts pun susah. urghh! i miss her i miss her i miss her. i miss our often trips to X'odus at heeren dulu2. i miss boat quay-ing with her. i miss drum n bassing with her. i definitely miss hrc-ing with her. and i miss pulling her hair bkoz its so godamn long like horse tail like that. haiz........lina lina, mana kau?

ok ok. enuff of this. i had officially completed my project yayyy! ermm....except for the graphs. tapi tanggung beres.

so im gonna call my lifetime now and chat the night away with sweet somethings n nothings with him. n hopefully he'll snore for me tonight. snore for me tonight honey...snore for me.

ngantuks gila babs

2006-11-23T01:28:00.000+08:00

as droopy as my eyelids are now, i am enjoying every minute of burning my midnight oil doing my project. these are my last two modules before i throw my graduation hat yayyyyyy!! and i'm planning to ace it ok. ouh jinx. i mean, a C would be ok. :) i'm almost done with my project actually but i'm still doing my research and readings from different cases in newspapers for wider contents and understanding.

when it comes to tight deadlines like this, with my class test coming next week, i just want to stay home and do my revisions and stuffs so can i please not report to work? cannot. bkoz work sucks. must settle lots and lots of stoopid invoices. but i could make a facial appt though.......harharhar

why am i blogging abt this? whatever.

ok. must continue with my research already liaow.

i love the weather. i love monsoon season. i love chilly winds. but not chilly enuff for snow to appear so there goes an excuse of buying winter killer boots and vogue furry (fake of course!) smashing jackets.

and i miss him. how ar?

when i was analysing on inventory management, it seems like i was imagining how his snores gonna sound tonight. i reckon it must be quite a snore since he had a stoopid day at work. oh well, snore or no snore, i will still be his lifetime mechanic if he's a car and do and fix him right. woohoooo!

handheld mirror, u suck big time.